Ever After

Chapter 3



Healing



I spend the next few weeks in more therapy. Gran found that razor I had hidden the very next morning. She said she had a glimpse of what I was thinking in a dream after she left my room. The very next morning she marched into my bathroom got the razor, grabbed my wrist (I’d been hiding the bandage under long sleeve shirts), pulled back my shirtsleeve, and saw the band-aid. I would never forget the look on her face. It was the same one she had the night before when she spoke of my mom and her death. I was taken downstairs where she told my dad.

I was thankful Sara was out shopping as she usually was. Dad called my therapist and I was basically on suicide watch now. I was never alone for three weeks strait and my therapist upped my all medications. I stayed in a haze until I got Dad to let me take my own pills. I began to cut them in half so I could feel half as numb as I had been. I didn’t even know where I was most of the time, before that.

I felt suffocated as Gram slept in a pullout cot in my room. She waited for me outside the bathroom as I showered or did anything with the door closed. I had overheard Dad and Sara one night arguing about sending me to a special hospital (code for nut house). Thankfully, Dad said no way in heck. He was working with my doctors to keep me home, unless I tried to hurt myself again. Honestly, I wasn’t thinking about that much anymore.

Sara argued if people found out about all my problems, it would tarnish our family name; so typical of her. She also mentioned people at the country club were talking about me. Sara was more worried I would never get a date or marry well, if the truth about my mental condition was known. I knew they all meant well…maybe even Sara in her own twisted way. They were only trying to save me from myself. I had officially become my own worst enemy.

I was doing better, a few months had passed and Todd was still on house arrest, but he had not called me since the night after Gram’s vision. Dad’s lawyer was working on getting a trial date, since my blood work did show high levels of a date rape drug. It would only be a month or two more before the court date was set. I only hated the idea of going up in front of a jury and re living that horrible night all over again. Two other girls were also set to testify against Todd. I hadn’t heard what he did to them, but I was sure I would very soon.

Also, Mr. Perfect (the one Gran had seen in her visions) had not shown his mysterious face yet (thank God). I was starting to relax a little knowing if Todd stepped an inch out of his house the cops would be all over him. Dad also hired a security team to watch the house at all times. I was getting used to seeing them walk the area around our house, and I even knew most of them by name.

I was still in therapy, only two days a week now and I was taking less of my medication. I had noticed I was still very tired almost all the time. I figured it was the antidepressants but at times, I just felt like sleeping all day, that part I really hated. Gran had been watching me as usual. I knew she saw I was having trouble. She saw me make excuses to go to my room when my energy level just bottomed out. I hid the fact I had been having migraines to go with the tiredness. I didn’t want to deal with more doctors so I suffered in silence.

The one bright spot in my days had been that I had started riding my horse Wind Song again. My doctor even said that riding was therapeutic for me. I had given up riding, after the attack. Up until that night I rode every day, and even competed at two or three horse shows a month. I began to really enjoy my time alone with my horse just riding, and looking at the fall leaves. I roamed all over our property blocking out all my problems. I would let my mind just wander. I let myself escape reality for a few hours every day.

I went riding as often as I could. The weather had been nice but was getting colder more each day as fall was ending. I dreaded when it started to snow. I would not get to go riding as much. I especially liked escaping Sara. She had been on my case to go out more and go back for my sophomore year in college. I had thought about it and was just about ready to do that, but not because she was pushing it.

Kara and Beth, my two very best friends, were coming over that evening. We planned on watching some scary movies and eating junk food. It would be like the typical girls night, like we use to have before I lost my mind. I missed silly things, like talking about who was dating whom and what was in style. My world now was too dramatic, and heavy. I longed to be carefree again and not so weighed down.

They got to my house on time. We had the house to ourselves tonight for a little while anyway. Dad was in Chicago with Sara for some benefit dinner. Gran was at bingo at the senior center. We made popcorn and chocolate chip cookies shortly after they arrived. They filled me in on all the latest gossip from school and told me what they had been up to.

“I could explode,” Kara, sighed we all groaned in agreement. “I haven’t eaten like that in months.” I put my head on the couch as Beth flipped her long braids back and got up to turn off the movie. I had always envied her. She had the most lovely mocha skin and super long legs unlike me. Kara was as fair skinned as I was but had short red hair that spiraled into curls. She also had a sprinkle of freckles, which she hated, but we all thought were cute.

The three of us had been inseparable since first grade. We had been through every teen crisis together from zit’s to periods and bad break ups. They had been by my side through all of my recent problems too or nightmares, however you want to put it. Many of my other friends couldn’t understand what I had just gone through with Todd, but Kara and Beth did. They had both stayed by my side, even at my craziest points.

I was enjoying myself now, a rare occasion for me these days. It was nice to just have girl time: no drama, no tension. Kara got a wicked smile on her face as she put the DVD back in the case after we watched it.

“So have you met your new neighbors Corrine?” She winks at Beth. I knew they were up to something. They were always up to something they thought was good for me. Kara grinned as she looked at Beth.

“Yeah, have you seen them or should I say him?” She chuckled as she popped some chips into her mouth. I had to hide my inner flinch at the word him. Really, I didn’t care who my new neighbors were and I especially didn’t care if it was some guy.

“I saw the him, he looks our age.” gushed Kara. “He is like way hot. He has that spiky Edward Cullen hair thing going on.” She motions around her head. “You know…Edward Cullen…Twilight…duh!”

“Who doesn’t know about Twilight Kara…seriously?” Beth laughs. “I’m so team Jacob though!” She throws a piece of popcorn at Kara’s head.

“Definitely not….Edwards cuter!” Kara looks to me for added support.

“Ok…I have to stick with Edward Beth…sorry.” I like any red blooded American girl cannot hide my love of all things related to the Twilight book series or Edward Cullen. “Seriously though…vampires and phasing wolves aren’t real and neither is any guy remotely like Edward Cullen. Rob Pattison is real…but sorry girls you’d have to fight Kristen Stewart for him.” I laugh as Kara pretends to faint.

“I can dream can’t I…maybe some guy is like Edward…maybe even a vampire?”Kara laughs.

“You're nuts.” Beth shakes her head. “I’d take any half way decent guy…vampire or wolf.”

I have to laugh at them, and the silliness of anything remotely like Twilight being real is a nice break for me. I watch them laughing and teasing, and feel almost like myself again, and I like the feeling a lot.

“Oh ok…ok so your new neighbor is cute. That’s what I was trying to explain to you two weirdo’s!” Kara gets back to the original topic of our discussion as she picks several pieces of pop corn out of her hair.

“Where did you see him?” Beth squeals.

“Oh, calm down. He was just at the mall. My mom pointed him out. She sold his family their house.” Kara announces knowingly. Her mom is a real estate agent and a major gossip, so Kara is always well informed. “My mom said he’s an only child. He does have a really big extended family that’s lived around here for a long time. I don’t know much about them. I do know he’s in college, a sophomore this year just like us!”

“To cool, what else do you know?” Beth’s cheeks flush red. The girl has been on the hunt for a serious boyfriend since eighth grade. I try not to laugh at her enthusiasm. Kara gets up and looks out the window deep in thought.

‘Well… I know they are like totally loaded, like old money loaded. His grandfather founded some major medical kind of thing. I forgot what it was. His dad is the owner of like two major companies and in the stock market and all that stuff. I also heard he’s been going to school in Europe for the past few years…how cool is that?” They look at each other. I am hoping they aren’t planning to set me up with him. “He has gorgeous wavy black hair, and is about six feet tall or close to it.” Kara rattles on. I tried to listen, tried to act as if I cared, but anymore talking about boys was not high on my agenda at all.

“You’re quiet Corrine, what’s up?” Beth scans my face. I shrug my shoulders, trying to hide my feelings.

“Oh just tired; it’s nothing.” I sit back with a sigh.

“I have an idea.” Kara gets up clapping her hands together. “Let’s go meet the new guy and his family.” Her face lights up. “We could bring over cookies or something, you know, be neighborly and all that.”

“Oh hell no, you guys go meet him. I am not.” I groan. The whole deal sounded like sheer torture to me.

“Corrine, you can’t tell me you’re not a little curious.” Kara pushes. I luck out. We hear Gram come in; our party is over for now. Gram is a stickler for me getting my rest, so the girls would have to call it a night. All of us hugged and promised to call each other. As I closed the door, I took a deep breath, glad all the talk of this new guy next door was over.