And then, once we had them, we could get me inside the palace to disable the machine and deactivate the army of Abdals. And from there we had a real chance of taking on the Sultan’s army, and taking the throne. One mortal army against another.
Except, for the plan to work, we needed the right words in the first language. And judging by the ever-growing library in Tamid’s room we were no closer to finding them than we’d been a month ago. I wondered whether those words might’ve been lost forever. It seemed very human that we’d have managed to hang on to the words to capture a Djinni and compel it to do our bidding, but not the ones we’d need to return the Djinni’s freedom. It was as shortsighted as we usually were as a species. But all we could do was search.
‘You’re not here to ask me about that.’ Tamid rubbed his eyes tiredly. ‘What do you want, Amani?’
‘We’ve got a prisoner.’ I ought to choose my words carefully here, but there wasn’t a whole lot of time for subtlety. ‘It’s Leyla.’ Tamid winced at the name of the princess. We’d both been fooled by her, both been betrayed. We’d thought she was an innocent, helpless girl stuck in the harem. But she’d meant something more to Tamid once. And Leyla had used that relationship to get Tamid out of the palace with her and lead her father straight to us. She might’ve taken a whole lot of people from me, but I was far from the only person she’d hurt.
‘Because bringing Leyla to a rebel hideout worked out so well for you the last time?’ Tamid asked, sharper than he needed to.
‘I know,’ I said. I felt suddenly exhausted, like I wanted to slump down, but there was nowhere to sit among the books, so I just leaned against the door. ‘But she knows things. Things we need to know.’
‘Unless she knows the right words to free a Djinni from their bonds, I’m not interested,’ Tamid said.
‘She doesn’t have those,’ I said. ‘But she might have a way to get us the hell out of this city.’ Tamid finally looked at me, interest sparked. ‘But she’s not talking. Leastways not to me. Any chance you think she’d talk to you?’
‘Doubtful,’ Tamid scoffed, too quick to make me believe he had even given it any consideration.
‘I wouldn’t ask you if we weren’t desperate. But the Sultan is going to start killing people if we don’t give her back to him, and we need a way out. Can you at least try before telling me it won’t work?’ I tried to draw his gaze back to me, but he’d returned to his books, angry at me all over again. ‘Tamid.’ I heard the desperation creeping into my own voice. ‘I need your help.’
‘Of course you do.’ Tamid scowled at the book. ‘Because everything is always about you. Everything in my life has been about you since you came into it. I’m here because of you. Leyla used me to get to you. Even this –’ he waved at his books – ‘is about you.’
Tamid’s sudden outburst left silence in its wake. I wanted to tell him that it wasn’t true. That it wasn’t fair. That if his life in Dustwalk had been about me, that was his fault, not mine. Then again, I’d been the one who’d always wanted to drag him out with me into the great, wide world. He’d been the one who’d tried to hold me back there. In the end, I’d pulled stronger. But Leyla – that was something he couldn’t lay at my door. ‘Am I wrong? –’ I tried to keep the accusation out of my voice, lest I sound like a wife jealous of a husband’s lover –‘or did she make you that leg before I ever came around? If you want to be a martyr, Tamid, I can’t stop you, but don’t let other people die who haven’t gotten to make a choice.’
Tamid stared at the page for a long moment. ‘I’ll talk to her. But I have a condition.’
Name it. But I didn’t say that. ‘What is it?’
‘If she does have a way out of this city, I’m coming with you. I don’t want any part of this. This rebellion, or this suicide mission of a rescue you think you’re going to go on. I never did. I just want to go home.’ Home. Back to Dustwalk. ‘I never wanted to leave in the first place.’ I’d never understood what made him want to stay there. All he’d ever hoped for was to train as a Holy Father and take over the prayer house in Dustwalk one day. But I’d give just about anything not to have to go back to Dustwalk with him. It felt like a trap still waiting for me at the end of the desert. Like if I returned to the place I was born, the town might close its iron jaws around me and never let me go again.
‘And where that does that leave us?’ I asked. ‘Nobody else knows how to read the first language here.’ Nobody else had been trained by the Holy Father down in the Last County, where old traditions and old languages had hung on better than in the northern cities. ‘We don’t stand a chance against the Sultan if we can’t find a way to disable that machine.’
‘So what, then? You keep me locked up here on the off chance that I’ll find something?’ Tamid retorted. ‘I hate to tell you this, but if I was going to find the words we need, I think I already would have.’ He waved around the room angrily. ‘Because believe you me, I’ve been trying.’
He wasn’t wrong.
‘Fine,’ I conceded. ‘If we can get out of here, we’ll get you as close to Dustwalk as we’re able. Just talk to Leyla. Soon.’ I turned to go, but Tamid’s voice stopped me.
‘Amani.’ I turned back, door halfway open. He finally looked at me, a pained expression on his face, before glancing away again. ‘There’s something else.’ His eyes roved over the books strewn across his room. Like he was looking for another answer at the last moment. ‘It’s not— I have found something. Not the words you need to disable the machine, don’t get excited. But …’ Now he seemed like the one trying to pick his words carefully. ‘There are accounts, from the First War, of Djinn dying. In every single one, without fault, their death destroyed everything for miles around them. They’re made of fire. And their death … it’s like an explosion. They raze towns, battlefields, dry up rivers, split the earth itself, before vanishing into the sky to become stars. Leyla’s machine … When Fereshteh died, it trapped that power, harnessed it for the wall and the Abdals. But if you disable the machine, all that power, it won’t be contained any more …’ He trailed off uncomfortably.