Ambivalent

He stood just inside the door with an open manila file folder in his hands. He was frowning but he was still breathtaking. And taller than I remembered. The white doctor’s coat he had on over an off-white dress shirt pulled tight on his biceps. I squinted as the memory of what his body looked like while he was on the treadmill next to mine flashed through my head. Absorbed by the mental image, I failed to realize I was blatantly checking him out until he cleared his throat.

My eyes shot to his face. “I was looking for a tissue so I could blow my nose.”

“You mean like the tissues sitting in the box on the counter right in front of you?”

“Yes, those would be them.” I sniffed and plucked a tissue out of the economy sized box. Dabbing under my nose I muttered my thanks and returned to the exam table.

He shook his head and looked down at the folder in his hands. “So, Ms. Thompson, you believe you ruptured your implant. Why do you think it’s ruptured?”

“I fell,” I answered.

He looked up from the folder and stared at me.

“I fell down, hard, on my chest. I think I heard a pop. Like a balloon and then my chest felt squishy.” Oh my God. Someone please shoot me. Did I really just use the word squishy?

“Squishy and a popping sound, that’s interesting.” Dr. Bennett narrowed his eyes as they moved down to my chest. “How long has it been since you had breast augmentation surgery?”

“Umm, I’m not exactly sure.” I coughed.

He looked puzzled for a moment as he stepped closer to the exam table. “I don’t need an exact date. If you can narrow it down to the year it should be fine.”

I had no year, no month, no brain, apparently. What the hell had I been thinking by attempting this idiotic plan? The sudden need to pack it up and run hit me with a powerful punch. I rubbed a hand over my heart.

“Ms. Thompson are you okay?”

“Sorry, yes, I’m fine.” I met his deep green eyes hoping he didn’t see the extreme guilt I was feeling for lying.

“You look familiar. Have we met before?” he asked.

I almost fell off the exam table.

There was no way Dr. Bennett recognized me. It wasn’t possible. I had been in disguise each time.

Remembering how he reacted in the cafe and then again at the gym sent my pulse furiously pounding. I needed to change the course of his questioning in order to distract him.

“You know, I don’t actually remember the year I had my surgery. That’s funny, right?”

He frowned again. “Can you at least give me the name of the doctor who performed the procedure?”

“Sorry, I’m not good with dates or names.” I knew I sounded like an airhead but at least he was no longer looking at me like I was familiar. Instead, he was back to looking irritated.

He took another step in my direction. “Talk to me about what symptoms you are experiencing. Any fever, pain or swelling of the chest area?”

I had absolutely no idea how to answer him. I should have conducted more research beforehand so at least I would have had a clue as to what types of symptoms an implant leak even caused. It was too late now. I would have to go with the flow.

I shook my head no.

“Let me guess, you can’t remember if you’ve had symptoms or not, right?” he snapped.

I didn’t appreciate his sarcastic tone one bit but kept my mouth shut.

He sighed and tossed my file onto the countertop. “Unbutton your blouse so I can take a look.”

I looked down at my blouse. The man wanted to see my breasts, naked, without the protective shield of clothing. Which would make sense since he was a freaking doctor. The problem was, I wasn’t on board with his request.

A slight knock sounded from the other side of the exam room door and momentarily saved me.

“Come in,” Dr. Bennett called out, while continuing to stare at me impatiently as he waited for me to get my butt in gear and drop my clothes.

The door opened and Nurse Monique came strutting into the room. Flashing a coy smile at Dr. Bennett, she headed straight for the cabinet area where she leaned back against it.

“Ms. Thompson, I’m waiting,” Dr. Bennett snapped.

Shit. I was really going to have to strip.

Gripping the last button above the bottom hem of my blouse, I asked a question. “So how do you like being a plastic surgeon?”

“It has its moments. Now can we move along? You are not the only patient I have to attend to today.”

It wasn’t exactly an elaborate answer but it was something. I asked a different question. “You know, I’ve always found plastic surgery fascinating. Why do you think women come to you, like what’s the reason behind their needs?”

“Well, you tell me, Ms. Thompson. Why did you decide to enhance your breasts? Was it for a husband or a boyfriend? Or because you were envious over another woman’s chest?”

Stunned, my hands dropped into my lap as I gaped at him.

“Dr. Bennett,” Monique sighed.

“For the love of god,” he muttered as he reached out and practically ripped the last four buttons off my blouse as he hastily undid them.

Exposed in my light pink lace bra, I mustered enough dignity to announce my displeasure. “You don’t need to be so rough. I was doing what you asked.”

“Yes, but at the rate you were moving, we would be here all day, Ms. Thompson.”

From across the room, Monique cleared her throat and opened one of the drawers under the counter. Pulling out a pair of disposable latex gloves she handed them to her boss.

“Do you have any allergies that we should be aware of?” she asked. I shook my head as I watched Dr. Bennett expertly pull the latex over his hands.

It wasn’t a good sign. The man was about to touch me and find out I was a liar, which majorly sucked because I had yet to gather any of the information I needed.

A question flew out of my mouth at a speed that could easily win a NASCAR race.

“Dr. Bennett, I was wondering what kind of surgeries you do the most of?”

“Ms. Thompson, do you think you can focus on the issue at hand instead of asking five million questions? I apologize if you’re not getting enough attention from your significant other, but I really don’t have the time to do their job for them.”

“You are such an ass,” I yelled before I could stop myself. A hand flew to my mouth and covered it. It was uncommon for me to speak to someone so rudely but I was so over his ill-mannered behavior.

Clutching my shirt closed, I wiggled my butt, inching sideways so I could hop off the table without coming into contact with him. A latex-covered hand clamped down on my hip and jerked me back into place. Without a word he wrapped those large hands around my wrists and pulled them from where they were holding my blouse together. I was so in shock, all I could do was stare at him.

His eyes briefly met mine before looking down at my chest. With a flick of his wrist, he flipped my bra cups up, causing my breasts to spring free.

My eyes snapped shut as I squeaked.

In mere seconds, gentle fingers circulated over the plump flesh of my right breast before pressing gently underneath the nipple. Slowly opening my eyes, I focused on his hand as it left my beaded nipple and shifted to my left breast. He repeated his movements before his hand suddenly stilled and hovered an inch from my body. I flicked my eyes to his in time to see something dark pool behind the sparkling green, quickly snuffing out whatever light that was reflected in them.

“What is it, Doctor?” Nurse Monique asked.

I had forgotten she was in the room.

Stepping back, he addressed his nurse while keeping his eyes locked with mine. “Monique, give Ms. Thompson and I a minute.”

Monique gave the back of his head a strange look but quickly left the room. I was so scared, I almost yelled for her to come back.

Dr. Bennett pulled off his gloves, tossed them in the trash and crossed his arms against his broad chest as he faced me again. His stance gave fair warning that whatever he was about to say, wasn’t going to be good.

“You want to tell me what the hell you’re really doing here, other than wasting my time with some made up story?” he crossly asked.

Pulling my bra back over my breasts, I buttoned my blouse and made the decision to fess up. “I’m a writer for Polish Magazine and wondered if you would be willing to answer a few questions for an article I’m working on.”

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