After Lilli stood up to her family, for me, for our friendship, I understood what it felt like to be accepted for who I am. Of course, at first, I'd bad intentions and was pretending, but soon I couldn’t help but be infatuated with Lilli. She is so compassionate. And when I began helping her at the shelters, I felt a shift inside of me. It wasn’t a welcome change for me, but I had no choice but to succumb. I knew I couldn’t hurt Lilli. I cared for her. Even though we were about the same age, she is the mother or female figure I'd never had in my life. Her interaction with her children and other children only made those feelings embed themselves into my soul, a soul I swore was lost many years ago.
Confronting my father, telling him I would not go along with his plan and would not sleep with Aidan and destroy their marriage, effective destroying Lilli, had not gone over well. He was furious and told me to stop being absurd. When I told him that I was done and turned to leave, he grabbed my arms and threw me to the floor.
"You are disgusting, just like your weak pathetic mother! She couldn’t handle it. She couldn’t handle anything. Hell she didn’t even care enough about you to follow orders. Instead she goes and kills herself! Absolutely pathetic!" He sneered.
"Mother killed herself?" I choked on this new information. A whirlwind filled my head, confusion and despair began to fill it.
He smirked at me.
"Of course she did. I suppose she did me a favor." He shrugged and I felt sick. "It got her out of the way and allowed me to raise your properly." Then he looked at me in disgust "How disappointing that you turned out just like her, even with her not around."
He sighed heavily.
"Get out of my sight! You are no longer my daughter! I will not have a disrespectful, uncooperative, and weak child!" He pushed a button on his desk that I was all too familiar with. Karl entered and removed me from the room.
"You're a sick bastard!" I screamed as Karl drug me out of the room.
"Goodbye Loreley." My father said. Without any emotion he watched me dragged from the room.
That was the night I had nowhere to go. Afraid to go to my apartment, fearing my father's wrath, I ended up on Lilli’s doorstep, eyes swollen and red. She had tried to get me to talk with her, but I couldn’t. If she knew what I'd been a part of, she would’ve hated me and she was all I had. Instead of pressing it, she offered me a place to stay. She completely amazed me with her compassion.
I was surprised at how things went when I did return to my apartment. I was sure my father would cut everything off and have me locked out, but he didn’t. So, I tried to quickly find a new place to live, withdrew as much money as I could from the bank and kept the cash around.
There were a couple of places in California I wanted to look at, as well as a college where I could finish my degree. Unfortunately, I didn’t work fast enough. Before I could move on with my life, father dragged me back in, this time unconsciously. "I needed a healthy warm body" he had said to me in the limo.
My good behavior paid off at six and a half months pregnant. I was allowed to walk around the grounds of the house. I didn’t push it at first. I may no longer be my father’s willing puppet, but he had taught me well. I observed and devised my plan.
Seven months pregnant, I suggested being allowed to go shopping for the baby. My father was reluctant, but allowed it, as long as Karl and Rashand were nearby. Given the fact my father rarely thought of the opposite sex, unless he needed a young girl to fuck him for a night or he needed to use someone like me, I assumed a dressing room would be my best opportunity.
While we were out, I purchased multiple baby items with my father’s money. I purchased an entire baby suite of furniture; crib, dresser, armoire, changing table, rocking chair, etc. Then I picked out bedding, blankets, sheets, stuffed animals, etc.
Then I walked into a maternity boutique and picked out some clothes. Karl tried to follow, but the attendant quickly stopped him.
"Sir, you can’t go back there." She put her hand on his chest.
I felt Karl eye me intently as I headed into the changing room, but I didn’t look back. I was sure he wouldn't physically restrain me in public.