The Big Bad Wolf

CHAPTER 3

EARLY MONDAY MORNING, I was oblivious to the rest of the world and its problems. This

was the way life was supposed to be, only it rarely seemed to turn out so well. At least not in

my experience, which was limited, when it came to anything that might be considered the

“good life?”



I was walking Jannie and Damon to the Sojourner Truth School that morning. Little Alex was

merrily toddling along at my side. “Puppy,” I called him.

The skies over D.C. were partly cloudy, but now and then the sun peeked through the clouds

and warmed our heads and the backs of our necks. I’d already played the piano ,Gershwin,

for forty-five minutes. And eaten breakfast with Nana Mama. I had to be at Quantico by

nine that morning for my orientation classes, but it left time for the walk to school at around

seven-thirty. And that was what I’d been in search of lately, or so I believed. Time to be with

my kids.

Time to read a poet I’d discovered recently, Billy Collins. First I’d read his Nine Horses, and

now it was Sailing Alone Around the Room. Billy Collins made the impossible seem so

effortless, and so possible.

Time to talk to Jamilla Hughes every day, often for hours at a time. And when I couldn’t, to

correspond by e-mail and, occasionally, by long flowing letters. She was still working

homicide in San Francisco, but I felt the distance between us was shrinking. I wanted it to and

hoped she did too.

Meanwhile, the kids were changing faster than I could keep up with them, especially Little

Alex, who was morphing before my eyes. I needed to be around him more and now I could

be. That was my deal. It was why I had joined the FBI, at least that was part of it.

Little Alex was already over thirty-five inches and thirty pounds. That morning he had on

pinstriped overalls and an Orioles cap. He moved along the street as if a leeward wind were

propelling him. His ever-present stuffed animal, a cow named Moo, created ballast so that he

listed slightly to the left at all times.

Damon was lurching ahead to a different drummer, a faster, more insistent beat. Man, I

really loved this boy. Except for his fashion sense. That morning he was wearing long jean

shorts, Uptowns, a gray T with an Alan Iverson “The Answer” jersey over it. His lean legs

were sprouting peach fuzz, and it looked as if his whole body were developing from the feet

up. Large feet, long legs, a youthful torso.

I was noticing everything that morning. I had time to do it.

Jannie was typically put together in a gray T with “pro Athletics 1987” printed in bright red

letters, sweatpant capris with a red stripe down each leg, and white Adidas sneakers with red

stripes.

As for me, I was feeling good. Every now and again someone would still stop me and say I

looked like the young Muhammad Ali. I knew how to shake off the compliment, but I liked

to hear it more than I let on.

“You’re awfully quiet this morning, Poppa,” Jannie laced her arms around my free arm and

said. “You having trouble at school? Your orientation? Do you like being an FBI agent so

far?”



“I like it fine,” I said. “There’s a probationary period for the next two years. Orientation is

good, but a lot of it is repetitive for me, especially what they call “practicals”. Firing range, gun

cleaning, exercises in apprehending criminals. That’s why I get to go in late some days.”



“So you’re the teacher’s pet already,” she said, and winked.

I laughed. “I don’t think the teachers are too impressed with me, or any other street cops.

How’re you and Damon doing so far this year? Aren’t you about due for a report card or

something?”



Damon shrugged. “We’re acing everything. Why do you want to change the subject all the

time when it’s on you?”



I nodded. “You’re right. Well, my schooling is going fine. Eighty is considered a failing grade

at Quantico. I expect to ace most of my tests.”



“Most?” Jannie arched an eyebrow and gave me one of Nana Mama’s “perturbed” looks.

“What’s this most stuff? We expect you to ace all your tests.”



“I’ve been out of school for a while.”



“No excuses.”



I fed her one of her own lines. “I’m doing the best I can, and that’s all you can ask from

somebody.”



She smiled. “Well, all right, then, Poppa. Just as long as the best you can do puts all A’s on

your next report.”



About a block from the school I gave Jannie and Damon their hugs so as not to embarrass

them, God forbid, in front of all their cool-ass friends. They hugged me back and kissed their

little brother, and then off they ran. “bye,” said Little Alex, and so did Jannie and Damon,

calling back to their brother,” bye, ba-bye!”



I picked up Little Alex and we headed home; then it would be off to work for soon-to-be

Agent Cross of the FBI.

ú,” said Little Alex as I carried him in my arms. That was right Dada. Things were falling into

place for the Cross family. After all these years, my life was finally close to being in balance. I

wondered how long it would last. Hopefully at least for the rest of the day.