Love in English

Chapter Thirty-Two
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I exhaled and adjusted myself in my seat, trying not to elbow my seatmate, which was impossible. I totally knocked them off the armrest.
“Sorry,” I mumbled, still trying to keep my shitty red nose and puffy eyes hidden from view.
“I’m sorry, too.”
The blood in me stilled.
The voice.
That voice.
No.
No, it f*cking could not be.
I very slowly turned my head toward the passenger sitting beside me, looking at them for the first time.
Mateo was right there, staring at me, his quiet smile and soft eyes just inches away.
My breath hitched in shock. I was dead, wasn’t I? The plane crashed on take-off and I was dead! Or sleeping. I was sleeping.
I slowly tore my eyes off of him and looked around at the other passengers on the plane, wondering if they were dead too or asleep or strange, or if something was out of the ordinary, some sort of sign that I was dreaming or God was playing the world’s cruelest practical joke.
“I was hoping to get your attention earlier,” he said with a shrug. “But you never looked this way once. I can see why, your little red nose.”
I continued to stare at him like a deer in the headlights. I started shaking my head in disbelief. “No. No, h-how can you be here?”
“Is it bad that I’m here?”
I shook my head again, licking my lips, trying to find words where there were none. Everything around me throbbed as if in slow motion. My mind was officially blown and the rest of me was struggling to catch up.
Mateo.
Here.
Next to me.
Flying to Vancouver with me.
“I told your mother that I wanted you to be with your family and people who loved you,” he said simply. “Whether you believe it or want it, Vera, you are my family. You are my universe. And I love you more than anything.”
“That is so sweet,” the woman next to him gushed, obviously eavesdropping. Actually, I was sure the whole plane was probably listening to this.
I blinked at him, wishing we had privacy. But really, that didn’t matter. Everything I wished for was here.
“Will you forgive me?” he asked, placing his hand on mine. Warmth flooded through me, a shiver ran down my back.
How could this be real? How could this be happening?
“What for?” I breathed out.
“For not being sensitive enough during everything, for thinking you could handle all of that when I should have never asked you to handle it. You are strong, Vera, very strong, but I was so wrapped up in my own burdens, of what I had to carry, that I thought yours weren’t as hard. But they were. There were many, many things that I did wrong.” He raised my hand up to his and kissed it. “Will you forgive me?”
I still couldn’t believe it. “Of course,” I whispered, my emotions all fighting each other. What did this mean? “There is nothing to forgive, Mateo. You did what you had to do.”
“I know,” he said. “I just wished it could have been different. I forget that you are only twenty-three years old, Vera. You have shouldered so much and you are only twenty-three. Women your age shouldn’t have to deal with these situations. I am in awe of you, do you know that?”
I swallowed hard, unable to ignore the gnawing feeling of doubt in my chest. “And…how are things? With you. And them?”
He smiled and his eyes lit up. “I was granted joint custody,” he said.
I broke out into a wide grin. “Are you serious?”
He nodded. “Yes. I am serious. After you left me, I went and visited Isabel most days.” My face fell but he shot me a reassuring smile. “Do not worry, it wasn’t like that. It was just to talk to her. I very slowly got her to understand. I owned up to everything so there were no secrets. I explained how serious I was about you, what you meant to me, the kind of wonderful and good person that you were. I told her how badly I didn’t want Chloe Ann to grow up without a father. With a lot of patience, I finally got her to sign it over.”
“Just like that?” I asked.
He turned his hand from side to side. “Mas o menos. More or less. I promised her a big settlement in exchange for any humiliation she had to suffer.”
I raised my eyebrows. Figures it would come down to money.
“But,” he added, “it is worth it. I took the time to take care of everything while you were gone. The divorce is almost final. And my daughter can never be taken away from me.”
I felt like the sun was bursting inside my heart, flooding me with utter relief. I felt like I could finally, finally breathe again.
Mateo would never lose Chloe Ann.
All my worries turned to dust, blown away.
“So what are you doing on the plane with me?” I asked when I composed myself.
“I’m taking you back home,” he said. He noted the puzzled look on my face. “Madrid is your home. I am your home. We’ll go to Vancouver and I’ll meet your family. It is only fair, yes? And then I’m taking you right back to Spain.”
“And if I say no?”
His smile faltered, his eyes creasing sadly. “Then I will have tried my best. I bought you this plane ticket because I knew that a nine hour flight was the only way I’d be able to have your attention, where you wouldn’t be able to run, to leave. I figured I would spend the entire flight trying to win you back. Trying to make you love me again.”
My heart swelled, my lower lip trembling. “I never stopped loving you,” I said quietly.
He reached out and stroked my face, running his fingertips over my cheekbones. “I couldn’t quite be sure. Sometimes, when love makes you mad, you wonder if it makes other people mad too.”
I nodded. “It does.” I sighed and looked down. “I’m sorry that I gave up on us. I just tried to do the right thing.”
“That is okay, Vera. I love you enough to make up for it. I would never let you go without a fight.”
I shot him a quick look. “You didn’t know I was at Claudia’s for some time. I could have left the country.”
“You are impulsive,” he noted, “but I figured it would take you a while to make arrangements. And even if you had left, I know your address in Vancouver. I would have found you. You burn too brightly to be missed.”
I closed my eyes at that and smiled, a happy tear streaking down my cheek. I was finally letting myself believe it, believe that we were together and had a chance.
“So,” I said carefully. “You still want me?”
He laughed lightly. “Oh, my Estrella.”
He grabbed my face in his hands and kissed me, hard at first, then soft as our lips and tongues melded together, feeling like honey, tasting like gold. I felt him all the way to my toes, making my skin and body come alive.
The woman next to Mateo let out a happy sigh, apparently still watching us.
Mateo and I slowly broke apart, our noses pressed against each other, gazing into each other’s eyes. I couldn’t keep the smile off my face. I gripped his hair, holding on tight, afraid to let go. He was here, he was here, he was here.
And he was mine.
“You still want me?” he whispered, the utter vulnerability of his words sinking into me like silk.
“Si,” I said adamantly. “Always and infinity.”
He grinned and pushed up the armrest between us, unbuckling my seatbelt and pulling me to him. He put his arm around me and held on tight, his warm breath at my ear, his heartbeat steady against my back. He held me as the world outside the window turned to night and the starshine filled the endless sky.
We flew together like the stars.




Epilogue – Whistler
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Five Months Later
“Come on, Vera, you can do better than that!” Josh yelled at me.
“F*ck you!’ I yelled back. I couldn’t even look up to see his face because the moment that I did was the moment I was going to break my neck and legs. I was currently going down Whistler Mountain on a run that was way more challenging than it should have been. While I was a skier in my youth, I’d totally forgotten how to do it. As a result, I’d gone down most of the mountain in a snow-plow position. Several times the tips of my skis started to cross and I freaked out and launched myself into the snow.
In short, it was hell, and I didn’t appreciate my brother yelling at me. He was on a snowboard and was actually really good at it. He drove me crazy zooming down the hill and yelling at me to keep up.
Now I was pretty much near the end and I could see the sprawl of Whistler Village at the bottom of the hill. Most importantly, I could see the large patio where skiers and snowboarders were having their après run beers under the heaters, languishing in the high altitude sunlight.
Beer was my biggest motivator.
Somehow I made it to the bottom and immediately snapped off my skis and then brushed off my ski pants that were caked with snow.
“You did awesome,” Josh said, sliding next to me like a show-off, powder flying everywhere.
“Shut up,” I told him. “Don’t patronize me.”
“I’m not!” he said, lifting his goggles on top of his head. “I mean it.”
“Whatever.” I bent down and awkwardly scooped up my skis. “Get a beer in me and get it in me now.”
“I wonder if they’ve gotten a table already,” Josh mused.
We made our way through the throngs of people walking awkwardly in ski boots, just as I was, and stacked up our skis and board along the rack.
“I see Claudia!” Josh said.
I went and joined him and saw her at a table by the wall, waving at us and looking adorable in her little snowboarding outfit. I probably should have started snowboarding instead of skiing, but how was I to know I’d be so damn terrible at something I used to be good at?
“How was it?” she asked us as we snaked our way towards her.
“Great,” Josh said.
“Crap,” I said. “I nearly broke my legs a million times.”
“Well,” Claudia said, lifting up her beer. “All those shots at the bar last night probably didn’t help, did it?”
I dismissed her logic and sat down. “Why are you back so soon? I thought all you professional people were going to spend all day on the slopes on all them fancy black diamond runs.”
She shrugged. “All the shots last night didn’t help me. Ricardo looked worse than I did, so I’m surprised he’s still out there. His loss. I will drink all the beer.”
“No, we will drink all the beer,” Josh said, signaling for the waiter who quickly came over. We ordered a round of beers for us and for our missing ski bunnies.
Josh leaned back and put his face to the sun. “Oh man, I don’t want to go back to work. Can we just live here?”
“Well, I don’t want to go back to work either,” I said. “It’s all grey and shit outside and dark, and things are so boring during the off season.”
“At least your job is kind of fun,” Josh pointed out. “And at least you live in a foreign country. Doing paperwork for Las Palaminos or wherever you work sounds a lot better when you’re doing it in f*cking Spain.”
“Speaking of Spain,” Claudia said, looking over my shoulder. “Look who made it back alive.”
I twisted in my seat to see Mateo putting his skis away. He gave us a wave when he spotted us and I grinned in response. He looked f*cking sexy in his ski gear, I had to say. I should have figured that Mateo was also an excellent skier. The man who could do f*cking everything.
When I started getting my first bout of homesickness around Christmastime, I’d brought up the fact that Claudia and Ricardo had wanted to go to Whistler. Of course, she had said before Mateo had shown up on my plane, resulting in a two-day trip to Vancouver before we returned home to start our new life together. Still, I thought the Whistler trip was something we could all save up for. Besides, I had to return briefly to apply for my work permit. I had been paid under the table for my office services at the Las Palabras office but now I was ready to make it official.
As it was, Claudia and Ricardo were getting kind of blue about the Madrid winter and wanted a change of pace from the usual European ski spots. With Mateo on board and taking care of our hotel and part of our flights, the four of us were able to fly to Whistler and invite Josh along.
Well, actually we invited my mother and Mercy and Charles too, to be nice, but they declined. Oh well, couldn’t say I didn’t try. I wouldn’t stop trying to get close to my mother and sister, but at least I was learning not to take it personally anymore. Sometimes your family was through your blood and sometimes it was through your love.
While the waiter came back and put down the beers, Mateo came over to the table and leaned over me for a lingering kiss. He tasted like snow and fresh air.
“How is your knee?” I asked. “Can it handle skiing?”
“It is holding up.” He lifted his aviator shades and peered down at me. “I saw you, you were doing very well.”
I rolled my eyes and snorted. “Oh, now you’re yanking my chain too?”
“What is this chain you keep speaking of and why is anyone yanking it?” he asked.
“Yeah,” Claudia said, completely earnest. “Seriously, whose chain is this? A dog chain?”
Mateo made a small barking sound and laughed.
I slapped him on the arm. “Sit down, you dog. It’s an expression.”
Claudia made a tsking sound. “These damn English expressions. The moment you think you have the language under control, more letters explode.”
“I do know one expression though,” Mateo said, sitting down next to me and resting his hand on my knee. “We shall get buzzed like a bee.”
We all raised our glasses and clinked them together.
“To getting buzzed like a bee,” I said, smiling broadly at my crew, feeling warmth from the sun and warmth from my friends.
“Here, here,” they said in unison.
We drank and we laughed. Ricardo soon joined us and we drank and laughed some more, until the sun went down and the stars came up.
The End
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Acknowledgements
After so many books it’s hard to know what to say other than thank you and it’s hard to know who to thank, other than…everyone.
But Love, in English (LIE) was different. This book had me pulling from personal experiences in foreign lands. No, Las Palabras does not exist but there is a program just like it out there that I was once a part of. No, Mateo and Claudia don’t exist but there are Spaniards out there who inspired me to capture their essence in these pages. No, I am not Vera (though I kind of wish I was) but I did suffer from her lust for new experiences, that feeling that life would be better off somewhere else.
This book had me throwing out all my horror and suspense and action scenes out the window and made me dive deep into the world of Vera and Mateo. It was scary, to be honest, writing a romance with no crazy plot attached to it. But being scared is a good thing. “It scares me, so I should do it” is what Mateo said and I couldn’t agree more. Love, in English ended up being one of the best writing experiences of my life.
Of course, it wasn’t always rainbows and butterflies for this author. I cried a lot, suffering with my characters, finding myself thrown into fits of despair and afraid to continue on. I also freaked out a lot, lamenting to my tireless beta readers that I didn’t know what I was doing, that my first romance would be a failure, that it was boring, or people wouldn’t connect to the characters the way I had.
Time and time again they talked me off the ledge. And they weren’t the only ones. So really, for this book I have to thank all the people who assured me I was doing okay, that encouraged me to keep going, that believed in the book and in me and loved the both of us.
In no particular order: My LIE support group – Kayla, Laura, Ali, Nina, Lucia, Shawna. My LIE betas – Barbie Bohrman, Claribel Contreras, Megan Simpson, Hang Le, Christine Estevez, Lisa Chamberlin, Sandra Cortez. All them whores (you know who you are). My Awesome Authors for their invaluable feedback: K. A. Tucker, Nicole Jacqueline, Kathryn Perez, SL Scott, Elle Chardou, Lauren Blakely, Renee Carlino. Gif-making genius – Dorota Wrobel. My amazing cover designer – Najla Qamber. My maid of honor – Kelly St-Laurent. My Gal Fridays – Stephanie Brown and Chasity Jenkins. My editor extraordinaire – Kara Malinczak. My biggest fan – Scott MacKenzie. And my second biggest fan – Bruce.
Thank you for the encouragement!



About the Author
With her USA Today bestselling The Artists Trilogy published by Grand Central Publishing, numerous foreign publication deals, and self-publishing success with her Experiment in Terror series, Vancouver-born Karina Halle is a true example of the term “Hybrid Author.” Though her books showcase her love of all things dark, sexy and edgy, she’s a closet romantic at heart and strives to give her characters a HEA…whenever possible.
Karina holds a screenwriting degree from Vancouver Film School and a Bachelor of Journalism from TRU. Her travel writing, music reviews/interviews and photography have appeared in publications such as Consequence of Sound, Mxdwn and GoNomad Travel Guides. She currently lives on an island on the coast of British Columbia where she’s preparing for the zombie apocalypse with her fiance and rescue pup.
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