The Toymakers

For the first time, the world felt still. Kaspar still had his arms around her, but now she tore herself out of the embrace. She was ready to barrack him, but the pained expression on his face made her pause. That was when she saw where she was standing.

Inside the Wendy House, what had promised to be a cramped corner revealed itself to be a living room of preposterous size. Three armchairs gathered around an open hearth, and in between them was a table with board games piled high. There was a shelf full of books and a deep-pile rug, and in the corner a basket in which a toy tiger lounged. As they had approached, the Wendy House had barely reached the line of her shoulder. She closed her eyes, but they had not been deceiving her. Inside, the room was big enough to perform a cartwheel – and she would have done exactly that, if only her insides had not been cartwheeling of their own accord all morning. She stretched a hand upwards but her fingers could not even grace the rafters overhead.

She was about to step outside and check the veracity of her own vision, but Kaspar reached out for her again. ‘Not yet …’

Outside, the Emporium floor was groaning as the new trees settled. Cathy and Kaspar gazed out across a paper forest. Some enterprising customer had opened a box of Emil’s pipe-cleaner birds and they were now fluttering up high, their wings spinning vainly as they searched for a roost.

‘It will be safe soon,’ said Kaspar. ‘Just wait to make sure they haven’t—’

The words had barely left his lips when there was a rustling in the boughs of the nearest tree, and from its uppermost branches another varnished box crashed down, fracturing in front of the Wendy House door. Kaspar staggered back, taking Cathy with him, just as the tree exploded upwards, bulbous trunk and overhanging branches blocking their view. Moments later, when the tree was fully grown, Kaspar picked himself up and ran his hands across the bark. There was no way through.

Half of him was already counting the cost of putting this right, imagining the grave look on his father’s face, but the other half was grinning inanely, overjoyed to behold this wonderland his toys had made. The customers who had seen this (those without concussions, at any rate) would make sure this story was told for Christmases to come. There would be a rush on EMPORIUM INSTANT TREES tomorrow; this he could say with every inch of merchant’s instinct that lay within him. Papa, he would say when the old man began his rebuke, don’t you see what I’ve done? I’ve done better than make us a fortune – I’ve made us a spectacle. My toys, they’ll outsell Emil’s soldiers for certain …

He was about to impart all of this to the new girl – yet, when he looked around, she was still agape, exploring every recess of the Wendy House, running her fingers over every surface as if to make certain it was real.

‘What is this place?’

‘This, Miss Wray, is my papa’s pride and joy. He loves it so much he can’t bear to sell it, so we keep it just for show. Last Christmas, a man waltzed in here with a Gladstone bag stuffed full of pound notes, but Papa wouldn’t even come out of his workshop to see him. I had to send him away with a flea in his ear.’

‘But … how?’

It pained Kaspar to admit that he did not yet fully comprehend what his father had done to stretch out the space inside the playhouse. ‘Papa … does things. Emil or I, we’ll make a toy and along comes Papa and … he’s better, don’t you see? The things he does – why, there are toys, and then there are Papa Jack’s toys. And this Wendy House, well … I’ll get to the truth of the matter soon enough. Didn’t you ever have a lair when you were small? Somewhere secret only you knew about? A place in the bushes, or a corner of an attic, or …’

‘Well, yes,’ said Cathy, ‘but never like this.’

‘When Emil and I were just boys, we must have had a dozen different dens hidden around the shopfloor. They still show up from time to time, never where you’d think to look.’

‘We had a treehouse,’ Cathy remembered. ‘Lizzy – that’s my sister – used to sneak up cups and saucers and old china.’

‘Well, there you have it. And didn’t that treehouse seem huge when you were small? It might have been a castle itself when you were five years old. You probably thought it had an east and west wing, different antechambers, a gatehouse and a bailey and a curtain wall. Only, if you went back to it now, you’d find it tiny, just a few lengths of stick and a cramped little cubby. Do you see?’

Cathy really didn’t.

‘That’s the secret, I think. Papa won’t tell me because he says I’ll only really understand if I discover it myself, just like he did. But it’s got to be the perspectives. When you’re making toys, you’ve got to have the perspective of a child. Get that right and I would think you can do almost anything with space.’

Cathy had finished walking the circumference of the room and, for the first time, returned to the door where the paper tree sprawled.

‘We’ll just have to wait it out,’ said Kaspar, still hardly masking his glee. ‘They’ll dig us out soon. But …’ He paused, for there was a pained expression on Cathy’s face. She was cupping her belly with one hand and, with the other, bracing herself against the Wendy House wall. ‘New girl, what’s wrong?’

She opened her mouth to tell him it was nothing, but when no words came, Kaspar was already at her side. ‘New girl?’ He might have been shouting, but to Cathy the voice was as distant as the Emporium doors.

‘It’s nothing,’ she said, but this time she did not resist as Kaspar put an arm around her and helped her into the armchair at the hearth.

It had been happening too often, these moments when even the dizziness grew so acute she could feel the Emporium spinning. Normally it was in the mornings, when she woke in the small hours and had to creep to the washroom. On those occasions the dizziness could be stifled with tea and dry toast, but more and more often it was coming in the middle of the day. Only yesterday, she had been resting in the stacks when Sally-Anne had wandered past and made some remark about her shirking. Secrets, it seemed, always wanted to be shared.

Kaspar had found water from somewhere. She put the mug to her lips and felt rejuvenated, if only for a second. It was only now, when she was at her weakest, that her thoughts flickered back to that little strip along the estuary sands and all the people she had left behind. And: is my mother still knotted with fear? she wondered. Is Lizzy worried for me, or does she secretly smile when our parents look the other way?

Now that the room had come back into focus, she could see that Kaspar was considering her like she was some puzzle he had to unpick, all his glee at the paper forest suddenly drained away.

‘It’s nothing,’ she promised. ‘I haven’t been eating properly, that’s all.’

Kaspar’s eyes dropped from her face to her belly, before drifting back up. There was no doubt what he was thinking, for Cathy had felt her body straining at her clothes too often in the past days. It was foolish not to have brought more. New life was not the sort of thing you could overlook for ever. The baby had been tumbling all day; she could feel it as a new kind of nausea rippling across her insides.

‘Cathy,’ he whispered, ‘how old are you?’

‘I’m nineteen,’ she said, tensing beneath his touch.

‘You’re sixteen if you’re a day.’

She held his stare. His eyes had pierced her, but she held it still.

‘You answered one of Papa’s adverts. That means you had to be running away from something. You can’t keep a secret in the Emporium, Cathy. Along these aisles, a secret’s never safe.’

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