“Do not assume for a moment that I do not know how many lives I am responsible for.” Aldrik’s voice deepened. “This is not your choice.”
“And it’s not yours either, Aldrik.” Vhalla finally spoke up, silencing the group. “It’s mine.”
“Vhalla . . .”
Her lover’s eyes searched her desperately. Anger quickly turned into fear that she would agree with Elecia. That she would leave him. Vhalla knew that logic defined it as the “right” choice. But what they were, everything she and Aldrik had ever been, defied logic.
“I will go.”
“Are you mad or just selfish?” Elecia snapped viciously.
Aldrik ignored his cousin and gave Vhalla a slow, relieved smile.
“If I stay,” Vhalla began, tearing her eyes from the quiet joy that a smile on Aldrik’s lips gave her to look at the seething Western woman. “What will happen the first time Aldrik thinks me in trouble?”
The woman had no response.
“How will constant worry about my wellbeing impact his focus?”
Elecia still said nothing.
“Who will push him when he needs to be pushed?” Vhalla stole a glance at Aldrik, hoping he didn’t take offense to her words. “Who else is unafraid to say what needs to be said, when it must be said, to him of all people?”
She met Elecia’s disbelief with a challenge. Aldrik and Vhalla had wrapped their lives around the “appropriate” decisions as dictated by the world. They’d hidden their wants and pushed aside what they had known to be true. What had it earned them? A world of death. She’d had enough of doing what the world wanted.
“I am not helpless,” Vhalla insisted. She had been training for weeks with Daniel. “Give me a sword, and I can defend myself.”
“Damn you both.” Elecia wasn’t giving up gracefully. “You’ll get yourselves killed, and that’s the end of that.”
“Nothing will happen to either of us.”
“You can’t honestly believe that, Aldrik.”
“Oh, enough,” Jax groaned. “If you’re that worried, I’ll do it.”
“What?” the three said in unison.
“ ‘Cia is right, Aldrik.” Vhalla had never heard anyone other than Aldrik use Elecia’s childhood nickname, but Elecia made no objection to it being uttered by Jax’s lips. “You must live, and you know it. But me? My life means nothing. So I’ll be her sworn defender.”
“Your life isn’t nothing,” Vhalla couldn’t stop herself from objecting.
Jax tilted his head back with laughter. “You still don’t really know much about me, do you?”
Vhalla pressed her lips together in frustrated thought. She searched for a way to object, and yet she couldn’t, which was all the more aggravating.
“Why?” Aldrik seemed more curious than disbelieving.
“For Baldair.”
Vhalla inhaled a sharp breath, the name like an ice dagger to her gut. She remembered what Victor had said about the late prince, about quartering his body and feeding it to the dogs. Her hand rose up to massage the angry scar that covered her shoulder to chest.
“The last order I received from him was to protect her—”
“Fine job you did of it,” Aldrik remarked curtly.
Jax faltered a moment, a wounded expression overcoming his face.
“It wasn’t his fault,” Vhalla insisted, equally sharp. “What happened is on my shoulders.” She wasn’t going to let Jax take Aldrik’s ire for it.
“Let me have another chance.” Jax was relentless. “I am owned by the crown. It’s a fitting duty.”
Elecia averted her eyes at the reminder, as though she could un-hear the truth that spilled from Jax’s lips. Vhalla knew his situation had been similar to her previous enslavement, but she had no idea how it had come to pass. It was now something she desperately wanted to know.
“That leash now transfers to you, my Emperor.” Aldrik seemed more bothered by what Jax was saying than Jax himself.
The conversation was moving too fast for Vhalla to inquire about what leash.
“Order me to do it, and I’ll defend her to my dying breath. I’ll treat her life as my own. I’ll do it for Baldair and for you, my sovereign.”
Aldrik considered it, much to Vhalla’s shock.
“Come now, I’m not the hero type. Let me have this moment as we go out and save the world.” Jax gave a toothy grin as easily as if he was talking about the weather.
“Jax, I am not in the mood for levity.” Aldrik pinched the bridge of his nose with a sigh. “Very well.”
“Excuse me?” Vhalla finally entered the conversation, sharply. “I get no say in this? I said I can take care of myself.”
“Then use me only for those times when you can’t take care of yourself,” Jax countered easily. Sensing her continuing objection, he added, “Don’t take Baldair’s last order from me.”
It was part threat, part anger, part sorrow, and all determination. Vhalla bowed her head, frustrated. He was tugging on just the right heartstring to get what he wanted, and she hated him for it.
“All right,” she agreed weakly. “But find me a sword the first moment we can.”