The Shadows

FOUR

 

 

 

Patrick

 

The streetlamps cast a soothing yellow glow through the haze of dust as Patrick Devlin walked up Broadway. The chaos and congestion that usually clogged the street during the day had given way to one or two wagons making night deliveries, carriages heading to the opera or the theater or a supper party, men going to their clubs. There were couples walking and tired newsboys and vendors making their way home, but no tramps and vagrants—not in this part of town. Here the rich were still rich. Here there were no empty shop windows and warehouses given over to auction marts selling off the goods of those who had gone bankrupt. When he was in this part of town, Patrick believed all things must still be possible.

 

He reached for the bag looped over his shoulder, patting it as he had many times since he’d left the house, reassuring himself that the stone was still there. Tonight would be different from the last time. Tonight they would not fail. He knew it.

 

He’d chosen to walk instead of call for the carriage because he didn’t want anyone to know where he was going, not so late. Lucy and his mother were used to his comings and goings. As long as he kept the world right for them, they hardly cared what he did. The thought irritated him. They had never embraced the cause that he and his father lived for. For them, Ireland was far away, a place to come from but never to return to. And perhaps once he’d felt the same way. Before he’d spent three years there and seen such poverty and despair. Though he supposed even that would make no difference to Lucy, who was as self-absorbed as she’d been when he’d left.

 

Not like Grace.

 

The way she’d said yes when he’d asked her if she wanted to know him. That breathy and yearning sigh. He had dreamed about that voice, about her face, for three years. It was his father’s wish that one day the Devlin and Knox businesses would be combined, but Patrick had never cared about that. She’d always been around, throughout his childhood, a little sister for him and Aidan to tease. But then, one day, only months before he’d left for Ireland, she had come to the house to see Lucy, and he had been . . . struck. Grace had been just fourteen, thoughtful and clever and romantic. He’d realized then that he wanted her in his world.

 

But she was too young, and Ireland was waiting. He’d assumed he would forget her. There were too many other things to think about: keeping the business afloat after his father’s death, reassuring their suppliers, tending to his mother and sister. But he’d been unable to stop thinking of Grace. Even when things had settled and he’d got involved in the Irish side of the Fenian Brotherhood and it had taken over everything, thoughts of her haunted him. He saw her in a dark-haired girl on a Dublin street, in a pile of dusty books, in a pretty ribbon dangling from a vendor’s cart. When his mother had written to him of her father’s death, he’d wanted to return home, but it was impossible. And then he’d heard of the Knoxes’ troubles, and Grace’s likely early debut, and he had rushed home as soon as he could. The rebellion he’d helped organize had failed, and he was depressed and angry. He’d wanted someone to care.

 

Yes, she’d said.

 

Now, finally, it looked as if he might have everything he’d ever dreamed of.

 

The brick clubhouse of the Fenian Brotherhood loomed before him. Patrick clutched the bag more tightly and climbed the stairs. Before he reached the door, it was opened by Rory Nolan, a solid and craggy-faced man with graying temples.

 

“Patrick,” he said, ushering him inside, closing the door behind them. “The others are already here.”

 

Patrick’s pulse raced as he followed Rory past the second-floor offices and club room decorated in greens and golds, to the meeting room on the top floor. There was a table in the center of the room, but all the chairs had been cleared away. A lamp stood on the table. A long, slender piece of wood, carved with what looked like runes, rested on a cloth of green velvet. The men around the table were haloed in the lamplight, the rest of the room shrouded in darkness. All of them were older than Patrick. Only Jonathan Olwen was close in age. They had been in Ireland together, and had returned together too. Now, as Patrick approached the table, Jonathan shoved a nervous hand through his thinning brown hair. His smile of welcome was strained. Jonathan had argued against what they were doing tonight, but in the end he’d reluctantly agreed.

 

Gray-haired Simon MacRonan came forward. His blue eyes glittered as he reached out a hand.

 

Patrick offered the bag to Simon, who opened it eagerly, taking out the flat piece of stone called an ogham stick because it was etched with the ancient Druid writing, ogham. Simon looked reverently down at the stone, and then he made a noise like a yelp and dropped it to the table.

 

“What is it?” Patrick asked. “What’s wrong?”

 

“It burned,” said Simon. Then he smiled. “And that’s good, lad. That means it’s real.”

 

“It didn’t burn me.”

 

“There’s no Druid blood in your family, as we’ve learned already, much to our dismay.”

 

Patrick flushed. He tried not to think of that night three weeks ago, the certainty he’d felt as he’d dripped Lucy’s blood from the little vial onto the horn. It had cost her a pinprick—nothing more, and he’d done it while she’d slept. The blood of the veleda, he’d hoped, as they all had. It was his heritage—his father had often said that the Devlins were descended from the Druids at Allen, the seat of the Fianna. And when the horn had come to Patrick and they’d discovered it was the dord fiann of the prophecy, Patrick had known the spell already—it had been in a story passed down through his family. The dord fiann, the blood of the veleda, the incantation, and then the blowing of the horn three times. They’d done it all in this very room.

 

But something had gone wrong. The Fianna had not appeared.

 

“Your sister’s no veleda,” Simon had snapped. “Has your family any Druid blood?”

 

A lifetime of believing, of knowing he was special, gone in a moment. Patrick couldn’t help hating Simon for it, though he also needed him. They all needed him. Only Simon could read ogham, and he was descended from Druid priests and had the Sight too—another thing that should have been in Patrick’s family and wasn’t. Just looking at Lucy should’ve told Patrick she wasn’t the veleda. She was too vain and silly. He wondered why those stories had been in his family at all.

 

Simon hovered over the ogham stick, pushing at it quickly with his fingers, as if it were burning hot, moving it into place beside the rowan wand.

 

“Are you sure we want to do this?” Jonathan asked quietly. “It’s not too late to stop.”

 

Patrick glanced up, frowning.

 

Rory Nolan said, “The rebellion failed. There’s no money coming in. We need something to convince people a new rebellion will succeed.”

 

“Perhaps we should wait a little longer,” Jonathan insisted. “It’s only been a few days. Perhaps the Fianna will still come.”

 

“It’s been three weeks,” Patrick said. “How long should we wait? People are dying over there. Families starving. You saw it too. Will you be the one to explain to them that we were waiting for a spell we already knew didn’t work?”

 

Jonathan looked wary. “But the Fomori . . . surely there’s someone else—”

 

“Who else? These things fell into our hands for a reason. We need an army that won’t fail. We were meant to use them.”

 

“And we can’t delay further,” said Rory. “It could take years to stumble upon another spell.”

 

“The Fomori enslaved the Irish once before,” Jonathan noted. “Our ancestors went to war against them. Then we had the old gods on our side. That’s who we need: the Tuatha de Dannan.”

 

“If you can find a spell to summon them, by all means do so,” Rory said. “Thus far there doesn’t appear to be such a thing. But there is a spell to summon the Fomori.”

 

“The world has changed, Jon,” Patrick said as reassuringly as he could. “Do you really think we can’t control the Fomori now? We’re civilized men—”

 

“We’ve weapons, money, and politicians in our pocket,” added Rory. “We’ll make them do as we bid instead of the other way around.”

 

“And there’s no other way. We need them,” said Patrick.

 

He believed it too. His disappointment over the Fianna failure tormented him. Then Simon had found the rowan wand, half of the Fomori spell—they only needed the ogham stick—and Patrick had remembered the relic his father had brought from Ireland ten years before, which was in a display case in his study. That it had been the ogham stick they needed seemed a sign. The Fomori, the Children of the goddess Domnu, who had fought the old gods, the Tuatha de Dannan, and their allies, the Fianna, for the rule of Ireland—battles that had been fought over and over again throughout history. The stories said that the Fomori were the gods of chaos, but history was written by the victors. It was in the interest of the Fianna and the old gods to depict the Fomori as evil. Enemies were always so. Thus are legends made, thought Patrick.

 

Simon glanced up. “Well? Shall we continue?”

 

There was a murmur of ayes, Patrick’s among them. Jonathan hesitated, but then nodded.

 

Simon bent over the items again. He began murmuring, and then his voice grew louder, words in Gaelic that Patrick translated in his head: “Darkness and thunder, blood and fire. The eye of one who slays. As one is bid, so come the rest. The rowan wand and virtue gone. A blood price paid. Now come the Children of Domnu.”

 

Simon said them once, and then again. The third time, he picked up the rowan wand, grasping it high above his head, and strode counterclockwise around the table.

 

Patrick watched, the hairs on the back of his neck rising, the magic in the room growing and pulsing. The wand brightened as if the lamp shone on it, and then he realized that no, it wasn’t the lamplight at all—the wand was glowing. Glowing ever brighter, brighter and brighter until its light pierced the room, and he had to close his eyes and look away because it was like staring at the sun. Simon’s voice rose into a high and keening wail, a near scream, as he said in Gaelic, “And now the Erne shall rise in rude torrents, hills shall be rent. The sea shall roll in red waves. Now come the Children of Domnu!”

 

The last words were a cry like thunder, loud and roaring so that Patrick wanted to cover his ears against it. The magic was paralyzing and horrible. The lamp puffed out, the wand leaped to terrible brightness and then died. Simon collapsed onto the floor. Darkness fell hard and complete.

 

Silence pounded in Patrick’s ears, and then he heard the room breathing, the faint in-and-out hush of the walls, the shivering of the floor as if he stood on something alive. They all stood as if held in place; Patrick was afraid to move. What have we done? But then someone lit the lamp again, and as Patrick blinked in the sudden light, Simon was helped to his feet.

 

“Now what?” Rory asked. “Did it work?”

 

“It felt like it worked,” Patrick said.

 

“So did the Fianna horn,” Jonathan reminded them.

 

And it had. There’d been the same sense of the room coming alive, the magic growing and ebbing like a tide.

 

“We’ll wait until midnight,” Rory said. “Then we’ll all go home and see what happens.”

 

There was a knock on the front door.

 

Patrick started. They shouldn’t have been able to hear it from the third floor. But this was loud and urgent, again a sound like thunder. The whole building seemed to reverberate. His heart climbed to his throat. He glanced across to Jonathan and saw the same fear tightening his friend’s face.

 

No, not fear. He didn’t want to feel fear. This was the answer to a prayer. A sign. Everything he’d ever wanted.

 

“Well,” Simon said with a smug smile. “It seems we have our answer.”

 

He headed for the stairs, and they all followed. Patrick was caught up in the excitement. The spell had worked. The magic was real!

 

At the bottom of the staircase, Simon paused. They gathered behind him like children waiting for someone to throw candy. Simon grinned—it reminded Patrick of the illustration of the Morrigan, the Irish war goddess, he had in his study.

 

Simon opened the door.

 

Standing on the threshold was a man. He was soaked to the skin, dark hair dripping lank to his shoulders, his clothing—an embroidered linen shirt, a scarlet cape—clinging to him. He stood in a pool of gathering water, though the night was dry and hot. There hadn’t been rain in days. Other than that, he looked like any man. He was of medium height and muscled. A thin scar slashed his cheek.

 

He looked at Simon and then past him, to where the others stood on the last few stairs.

 

“Hello, lads,” he said. “’Tis Daire Donn, King of the World and ally of the Fomori. I am their messenger. I believe you called?”

 

 

 

 

 

FIVE

 

 

 

Grace

 

I felt I moved in a dream those next days. I thought about gorgeous Patrick Devlin and the way his gaze had lingered on my mouth—I must have relived that moment a hundred times. He could not really have said “You were only just becoming a beauty.” Or he had said it but he hadn’t meant it. None of it. Not the “I’ve loved you for some time,” nor the “Do you want to know me, Grace?”—or at least he hadn’t said it in that way that clutched my heart and made me answer “Yes,” and in my head, Yes yes yes.

 

I told myself he would think better of those things. There would be no invitation to tea, and nothing more would come of it.

 

But the invitation for me and my mother arrived, delivered by a messenger boy who stood on the stoop and said to Mama, “I’m to wait for an answer, ma’am”; and I began to think that perhaps my dreams of romance might come true after all.

 

My mother turned to me with a knowing look. “Now why, I wonder, would Sarah Devlin be so anxious to have us to tea, Grace?”

 

“I believe she thinks her son and I would make a good match.”

 

“Patrick,” Mama mused.

 

“Don’t tell me you didn’t know,” I accused. “You’ve already spoken to Mrs. Devlin. The two of you conspired—”

 

Mama swept my words away with “Are you averse to such a match?”

 

“No,” I admitted.

 

“Then it hardly matters how it came about.”

 

I’d been reading the book Patrick had given me that he’d said would tell me something about him. The poet was James Clarence Mangan. An Irish poet, as Patrick had said, and at first all I’d seen were pretty poems about Ireland and ancient heroes.

 

But the more I read, the more I saw what Patrick must have wished me to see. The poems were pretty, yes, but they were much more than that. “Lament for Banba” held the lines: “For the hour soon may loom / When the Lord’s mighty hand / Shall be raised for our rescue once more!” And in “Dark Rosaleen”: “’Tis you shall reign, shall reign alone, / My Dark Rosaleen!” I remembered what Aidan had said about Patrick being a member of the Fenian Brotherhood, and I understood. These were poems of war, about Ireland rebelling against British rule. Patrick was telling me of his passion for Ireland and her politics.

 

I closed the book, looking out my window onto the street below, and tried to decide how I felt about Patrick’s involvement. I thought of the way he looked at me, the things he’d said. Ireland didn’t matter to me, but I liked the passion it inspired in him. I liked that there were things that mattered to him beyond himself. He wasn’t like the other boys I knew, who talked only about horses and drinking. He was like those men in the stories I loved: heroes riding into battle because the world needed saving. Patrick was a white knight.

 

I rubbed my thumb across the worn cover; clearly Patrick had read this book many times, and suddenly I could not wait to discuss it with him, to discover more of him.

 

 

 

 

 

It wasn’t the butler who opened the door for us when Mama and I arrived at the Devlins’ for tea but Patrick himself. “You’re here at last,” he said, looking at me, making my heart flutter. “Come in, please. Mama and Lucy are waiting.”

 

“You won’t be joining us?” I asked, trying not to sound disappointed when he led us to the parlor.

 

“I’ve business to attend to first, I’m afraid. But it shouldn’t take long. I’ll be with you shortly.”

 

I couldn’t help smiling like a fool, and he smiled back; and it was a moment before I realized we were just standing there smiling at each other while everyone looked on. I ducked my head, and Patrick said, “I’ll be quick, I promise,” and left.

 

“How wonderful that you could come,” Mrs. Devlin said as she poured tea. “Dare I hope that this means your mother is feeling better?”

 

“I’m afraid not,” Mama said. “But we’ve left Aidan with her, and I trust she’s in good hands.”

 

I said nothing, though Mama and I both knew it would be a miracle if Aidan were still there when we returned. I watched as Lucy smiled distractedly and wandered to the window.

 

Mrs. Devlin said, “Lucy, my dear,” and then, to us, “I’m afraid my daughter is not herself this afternoon.”

 

“I’m quite myself,” Lucy disagreed. “More myself than ever, I believe.”

 

I knew that tone. Lucy was in love. The Astor boy still, or someone new?

 

Mrs. Devlin said in a low voice, “You must forgive her. She’s been in a state. Now, Maeve, you must tell me—” She was off then, speaking again of Grandma’s health, and Mama and she were soon engaged in conversation.

 

I went over to Lucy, following her gaze. Nothing but the park beyond the windows, fully leafed trees trembling in a warm breeze. I said, “We’re blocks from the Astor house. You couldn’t hope to see him from here.”

 

“The Astor house?” she asked blankly, and then, “Oh. Oh no. I’m done with him.”

 

“I suppose that’s best, as you had no hope of him.” It was a bit harsh to say it, but there was something about Lucy that brought out the worst in me.

 

She threw me an annoyed glance. “Yes, I know. And he’s a callow boy anyway. Nothing like—” She broke off.

 

So Lucy had another secret love. If she wouldn’t even tell me his name, he must be equally inappropriate. I sipped my tea and tried to ask casually, “Nothing like whom?”

 

“You wouldn’t understand.”

 

“Why do you say that?”

 

“Because all you care about are your poets and your stories. Why, until Patrick, I’ve never even seen you look at a boy.”

 

“I’ve looked,” I protested.

 

“You’re so innocent sometimes, Grace. You think love is chaste and sweet and romantic, and it’s not. It’s burning and overwhelming and . . . and messy. It never does what you want.”

 

Messy, yes, Lucy would think that, given that she’d never once fallen for anyone she could actually have. I said, “Well, you should know, given how often you’re in love.”

 

“This time it’s real.”

 

As it had supposedly been every time before. “If that’s so, then you’d best tell me who it is, as I’ll no doubt be seeing you with him.”

 

“I can’t be with him.” A sigh. “We’re like Romeo and Juliet.”

 

“Your families are bitter enemies?”

 

“No, but . . .” Lucy glanced toward her mother. “But Mama would never accept him. Nor would Patrick.”

 

“Why not?”

 

“Because he’s a stableboy.”

 

I choked. “A stableboy?”

 

“Keep your voice down.”

 

“Oh, for goodness’ sake, Lucy. You can’t be serious.”

 

“Why shouldn’t I be?”

 

“Because he’s a stableboy. He’s even less acceptable than that gardener you liked.”

 

“Sometimes I think it’s a curse to have money,” she said mournfully.

 

I wanted to hit her. “You don’t mean that, Lucy.”

 

“But I do. All these things . . .” She pulled at the lace on her bodice. “If I were poor, who I am wouldn’t matter. We could be together.”

 

“I think you’d miss your fine feather bed.”

 

“I wouldn’t,” she said, almost viciously. “I would give up everything for him.”

 

“You’re mad,” I said, thinking of bill collectors and furniture going out the door never to be seen again and my family in the poorhouse on Blackwell’s Island. “You have no idea what you’re talking about.”

 

She ignored me. “And the most terrible thing is that it must be secret. Patrick would dismiss him in a moment if he knew. I had to beg him to hire Derry as it was.”

 

“You begged Patrick to hire him? Since when have you had anything to do with the stables?”

 

“Derry needed a job. It was the only position Patrick had for him.”

 

“I see. Wherever did you meet this paragon of manhood?”

 

“He was in the park. I saw him and he was . . . he’s the most handsome boy I’ve ever seen, Grace. He’s . . . Well, there’s no describing him. I just looked at him, and I knew.”

 

“When was this?”

 

“Two days ago.”

 

I wanted to laugh. Trust Lucy to fall in love so quickly and deeply. And then I remembered Patrick, and suddenly it didn’t seem so stupid. There was something magical about Madison Square in the gaslight.

 

“Well, I’m certain everything will work out,” I said to soothe her, but I didn’t really believe it. Lucy was right: her family would never allow her to be with a stableboy.

 

She gripped my arm. “You mustn’t say a word,” she whispered urgently. “If you tell a soul, I’ll be ruined. Promise me. Promise me you’ll say nothing.”

 

I shook off her arm. “You’re hurting me.”

 

“Promise!”

 

“All right,” I said.

 

She looked past me. Patrick had come into the room, and I felt warm when I saw the way his eyes came directly to me.

 

His mother said, “Patrick, my dear, is your business done?”

 

“For now,” he said.

 

Lucy hissed in my ear, “Especially not to Patrick.”

 

“We’re hardly—”

 

“Promise.”

 

I nodded.

 

She drew away. “You’re so lucky, Grace. You don’t know what it’s like to want what you can’t have.”

 

How little she knows of me, I thought bitterly. I heard Patrick say to his mother, “Would you ladies mind if I took Miss Knox away for a few moments? Just outside, where you can see us.”

 

My bitterness faded. When he stepped over to me and said “Would you take a stroll, Miss Knox?” I forgot all about Lucy and her stableboy.

 

“I would be delighted, Mr. Devlin.” I ignored my mother’s relieved smile, and Mrs. Devlin’s doting look, as I went with Patrick out into the garden. Blooming roses in peach and pink bordered the walk that led the short distance to the park, and I remembered their scent—sweet and heavy—from the last time we’d come here. Their fragrance brought that night sweeping back, and the way he’d said, “I’ve loved you for some time.” I grew hot, looking down at my boots where they peeked from under the hem of my gown—my second best—of sage-green twill.

 

He stopped a little ways out. “I think I shall always remember the last time we were out here as the sweetest night of my life.”

 

I felt nervous and excited at the same time. I wanted the way he looked at me, but feared it too. I wasn’t used to it. I still didn’t quite believe it. “Patrick, this is all so quick.”

 

“Not for me.” He looked at me quizzically. “Am I rushing you, Grace? Would you prefer to go more slowly?”

 

He overwhelmed me. I wanted to go slow. I wanted to go faster. I hardly knew which.

 

He added, “I know it’s been a difficult time for you. Your father’s death was hard enough, and now, with all the rest . . . what a struggle it must be. But you’ve been so brave. When my own father died so suddenly, I felt as if the world had ended.”

 

My father’s death had been sudden too. His heart had simply given out. I remembered how terrible it had been, the messenger at the door, my mother’s white face. “Yes. It felt exactly like that.”

 

“One moment everything’s fine, and the next, everything is different, and there’s nothing you can do to make things the way they were. I never thought I’d recover.”

 

How well he understood. His smile was so sad and tender I wanted to put my arms around him. “But you did recover, Patrick. You’ve done so well for your family. Your father would be proud.”

 

“Your father would be proud of you too, Grace,” he said, and I could tell that he meant it. “I know he would.”

 

Impulsively, I took his hand, weaving my fingers through his. The moment I did it, I was horrified at my boldness, but the look that came into his eyes made me not want to draw away.

 

Again, I was afraid of what he would say and how much I wanted. I said quickly, “I read the book you gave me.”

 

“And what did you think?”

 

“I think you’re very . . . passionate. Aidan says you belong to the Fenian Brotherhood.”

 

“For some time now.”

 

“Is that why you went to Ireland?”

 

He hesitated. “Partly. My father had business interests there. But yes, I was there because of the Brotherhood as well.”

 

“I hadn’t realized you had such a love for Ireland.”

 

He laughed. “Really? You haven’t noticed the relics all over the house?”

 

“Well, those, of course.” I flushed at his teasing. “But I thought that was your father’s collection.”

 

“It is. It was. But it became ours together. I’m as interested in antiquities as he was.”

 

“What I meant to say was that I didn’t know you harbored such a love for the land itself.”

 

“The people—our people—are oppressed there, Grace. They’re dying beneath British rule. The rich landlords are taking everything, leaving poverty and hopelessness. Our only hope is for rebellion.” He spoke so intently, with a restless fire in his eyes. He was suddenly not the Patrick I knew, but I realized this was his true self. I thought of the poem I’d read, “Dark Rosaleen.”

 

I quoted, “‘O, the Erne shall run red, with redundance of blood.’”

 

He looked stunned. “You did read them.”

 

“Of course I did. I wanted to know you.”

 

Our hands were still linked. He tugged lightly, so I nearly fell into him, and then he kissed me—my first kiss, and it was just as I’d imagined it would be. His lips were soft and warm, tentative at first, and then he pressed harder, parting my lips, and at the brush of his tongue, I felt something drop inside me. I wanted to pull him closer, but before I could, he drew away, leaving me breathless, overwhelmed. I didn’t want it to be over.

 

He whispered against my mouth, “I must be the luckiest man alive.”

 

We were both lucky.

 

 

I felt as if I danced on clouds. There was nothing that could trouble me, not even the fact that Aidan wasn’t home when we returned, just as I’d predicted. I couldn’t even bring myself to be angry or annoyed as I went upstairs to check on my grandmother, who was sound asleep.

 

I turned to go, but then I heard her whisper, “Mo chroi.”

 

I looked over my shoulder. “It’s all right, Grandma. I didn’t mean to wake you.”

 

With a frail and withered hand, she gestured for me to come close.

 

“You’re happy,” she said—it was almost an accusation. “That boy.”

 

“Patrick Devlin. Yes.”

 

“No. The other one.”

 

“There is no other one. There’s only Patrick. Always and forever.”

 

Grandma grabbed my hand, squeezing it hard. She was surprisingly strong. She looked confused, and my heart fell. “Don’t trust him.”

 

“Who? You mean Patrick?”

 

“He will keep you safe.”

 

More and more confusing. I pulled my hand gently from her grasp. “Sssh. It’s all right, Grandma. You should rest.”

 

“They are coming. It’s you they want.”

 

“And Patrick will keep me safe, as you said.” I pretended to understand, wanting only to soothe her back to sleep. “Shall I give you some laudanum?”

 

Her eyes closed and then flickered open as if she was struggling to stay awake. “They’re coming. That boy. And the sidhe. You must remember.”

 

The sidhe. The fairies. Again. My joy of the afternoon faltered. “I know. I will remember. I promise.”

 

My words seemed to comfort her at last. She closed her eyes. Her breathing became deep and even.

 

Carefully, I tiptoed to the door. My grandmother was fading quickly. Today I’d spent more time listening to illusion than to reality. I doubted it was something a doctor could fix, even if we had the money to pay one.

 

Another thing I needed Patrick for. It wasn’t a pleasant thought. He had so much, and we had so little, and I wished I could be certain that he wanted me for myself and not out of some obligation. A white knight. Would Patrick still have wanted me if Papa were alive and everything was as it had been? Or was it only that I needed his help?

 

I went to my room and undressed and got into bed, closing my eyes, thinking of his kiss, breathing deeply of roses. But when I finally fell asleep, it wasn’t into sweet dreams of the boy I thought I could love, but into another nightmare—a piercing glow and the world streaked with fire; the Erne flowing red with blood; my ears full of the fierce and terrifying caws of ravens and thunder and my grandmother’s words:

 

They are coming.

 

 

 

 

 

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