Every Second with You (No Regrets #2)

Chapter Thirty-One

Trey

She’s bouncing on the bed. “Look, look!!!”

I blink, rub my eyes, and then take the phone she’s thrust into my hand. The screen is open to a Web page with a news story. “Show of hands. Did you buy the salacious call girl book in the last two weeks? C’mon. You know you did. Thousands upon thousands of readers snagged a copy; that’s how the book shot to the top of the bestseller lists. Turns out the girl pulling the tricks—” I stop reading to look at Harley. “That’s kind of tacky.”

She waves a hand frantically. “Who cares? It’s a media blog. It’s not the Washington Post. Just read.”

“Turns out the girl pulling the tricks didn’t get paid for the tales. Word on the street is she was blackmailed by the book’s editor. When reached for comment, the publisher said he’s looking into the allegations.”

Then the story ends. “That’s it? That’s the big plan to take down Mr. Stewart? I don’t get it.”

“Hit refresh. The updated version should be live any second. I just got off the phone with the head of the publishing house.”

I click refresh and wait several seconds for the page to reload. I scroll to the end of the story, and, as promised, there’s now more. “After checking the editor’s email records, phone log, and royalty schedule for Anonymous, the publisher has confirmed that Anonymous was the target of a blackmail scheme by the editor. The writer of the tell-all has expressed her wish to remain anonymous and has requested that any royalties due from the first two weeks of the book’s sale go to the charity Save the Orphaned Elephants, and that further proceeds from the book be donated to the New York City Halfway House for Girls. So, get your kicks on and feel good about yourself. You can read the tawdry tales and know the money is going to a good cause.”

Harley

He grins wildly. “You are f*cking brilliant. You know that?”

I raise my arms high in the victory sign. “I am a genius!”

I grab the phone from Trey to dial Cam. “What’s the story?”

“The elephant man is pleased,” he says, and I punch my fist in the air.

“We’re all good then?”

“It seems this debt has been paid,” Cam says. “You can get on that plane to California and not worry one bit about little old me, or little old him. But you better send me pictures of that baby. You hear me, now?”

Before I can answer, Tess shouts in the background. “We want gobs of baby pictures!”

I laugh. “I promise.”

Later in the day, I check my newsfeed again to find one more update to the breaking story about the call girl book. This update gives me the pleasure that only comeuppance can deliver. “Miranda Cuthbert has tendered her resignation, and repaid the funds she kept from the first two weeks of sales. Word on the street is her saga won’t end there. Sources say the state is looking into whether an extortion case can be made against Ms. Cuthbert.”

“Karma’s a bitch,” I say, after I read the latest update out loud to Kristen and Trey.

“Yes, it is,” she says. “And I am so going to base my next screenplay on you.”

“And you’re going to move to California and shoot it there, so I can see you more.”

“You better believe it. I’m next in line on that California Gold Rush you’re starting,” she says, as we spend the evening together in the living room. Jordan is here, too, and we order pizza, and the three of them drink beers, and I enjoy a Diet Coke. Well, that’s not entirely true. The baby and I enjoy a Diet Coke, because caffeine seems to make the little one wiggle in my belly, too.

After we finish the pizza, it’s time to say goodbye to my best friend.

“I’m going to seriously miss you,” I tell her.

“I’m going to majorly miss you. Especially since you’re taking the good bathroom towels with you.”

Trey clears his throat. “Actually, if you and Jordan want new towels, I might be able to chip in.”

Reaching into his wallet, he takes out a white and blue plastic card from Bed, Bath & Beyond, and slaps it down on the table. “Consider this a housewarming gift,” he says to Jordan and Kristen.

“Thanks, man. My greatest dreams have come true. I was always hoping you’d get me something from a home store,” Jordan says.

Trey rolls his eyes. “Whatever. I got it for her.” He points to me. “But never gave it to her.”

Jordan puts his hand on his heart. “Oh, it gets better. You’re re-gifting.”

“Shut up!”

Kristen reaches for the card. “Don’t mock this. Towels aren’t cheap, and I’m going shopping tomorrow and you’re coming with me.”

I tap Trey’s shoulder. “Not that I’m upset, but why would you get it for me and never give it to me?”

“It wasn’t right for you,” he says in a low voice. “Besides, I’m working on something else for you. I promise.”

He drapes his arm around my shoulder, and pulls me in close, and I feel safe and warm. I turn my gaze to the window, and wintry Manhattan night beyond the glass. Snow is starting to fall; this will be one of my last snows in a long time. We leave in thirty-six hours, and I’ll miss so much about New York, but so little, too. I said goodbye to Joanne earlier today and she made me promise I’d go to SLAA meetings in San Diego. I told her I’d already looked up times and locations.

“I’m proud of you, and I’m also pissed, because I knitted baby booties that you won’t need,” she said.

“I definitely won’t need booties. But I’m glad you’re proud of me,” I said, swiping away a tear. “I won’t forget that you’re the one who showed me the ugly beautiful.”

“And now you can take it with you, wherever you go.”

I feel that way about my friends too, like Kristen, and Cam. Because even though they won’t be coming to California, there are pieces of them that will always stay with me.

The most important parts of my life are coming with me, though. I snuggle in closer to Trey, and he wraps me tighter in his embrace.

Somewhere out there, our new life is about to begin.

* * *

It is our last night in New York before our nine a.m. flight tomorrow. Trey got a hotel room just for fun, he said. And because we’ve never spent the night in a hotel, so why not?

Why not, indeed?

Before I meet him at The Time Hotel in the heart of midtown and we pretend we’re fancy cool people who stay at kick-ass hotels all the time, there is something I must do.

I wrap my purple scarf from Joanne around my neck, pull up the collar on my warm coat, and brace myself as I walk from the subway stop through the late afternoon crowds along Central Park West. The cold bites my cheeks, and my boots crunch against the remnants of last night’s snow. Not much is left, and what remains has become yellow and dirty. I turn onto a most familiar block.

I’ve spent nearly my whole life in this city with one person. And I may never see that person again. I’m fine with that, but there is someone else who may not be, and it’s not fair for me to make the choice for my baby. I’m not going to do to my kid what my mom did to me.

I knock on my mother’s door. When she answers, she seems surprised to see me. Then she straightens her spine, smoothes her hair, and flashes a smile. She’s not Barb Coleman for nothing. She knows how to pretend everything is fine and dandy, but the dark circles under her eyes—mostly artfully concealed by makeup, but not entirely—give her away. She’s still not sleeping well.

“Harley, I’ve been following the news. Quite an eventful few days in the publishing world. Would you like to come in?”

I shake my head. Even though I’m shivering and the warm air from inside my one-time home rushes to greet me, it won’t lure me in.

I used to think I was like her. I used to feel as if we were sisters. Now I know we are not the same. And I won’t ever be like her.

I am breaking the cycle.

“I came here to let you know I’m moving to San Diego with my husband. I’m finishing school there, and I’m living with Nan and Pop. We’re going to raise our baby there. I want you to have my address and my contact information. I won’t do to my kid what you did to me. I won’t cut you out of his or her life,” I say, then I reach into my pocket for a sheet of paper, and I hand it to her. “That’s my info on it. I’ll send you a picture when the baby’s born. And I also included the name and number of a really good shrink in the city—Michele Milo. She specializes in intimacy issues. You might want to think about getting some help for yours.”

She says nothing, but she takes the piece of paper, folds it up, and stuffs it into her pocket.

“Travel safely, my dear.”

And those are the last words she says to me. I wish she’d said, “Thank you, I’ll go start therapy.” I wish she’d said “Sorry.” I wish she’d said, “I’m proud of how you’ve changed.”

Yet travel safely is all I get, and I suppose in the scheme of things, it’s all I truly need.

Sometimes, we want so much more, but I walk away content that I have all I need.

* * *

As I head toward the crosswalk, I spot a dark-haired girl who grew up on the same block. She’s a few years younger than me, but has always seemed worldly in her own way, as if she knew too much, saw too much for her age. Like me. She’s walking in my direction, fiddling with a sparkly charm necklace hanging at her throat, visible even with her coat on.

“Hey Harley.”

I wave. “Hey Kennedy. How’s it going?”

Her lips part, as if she’s not sure what to say. “It’s going,” she says with a sigh.

“I know what you mean. When do you graduate?”

“Not soon enough.”

I laugh. “I guess you’re ready to get out of the house and away from your mom?”

“Like you wouldn’t even believe.”

She’s a kindred spirit. I don’t know all the details, but she’s got one of those big, bold, brash moms, and I’ve always had a hunch Kennedy craved freedom from her. I’m glad I found mine. I hope Kennedy finds her escape too.

“You’ll get there,” I say, because I want to encourage her, even for one brief instant, as Joanne has done for me so many times. “Even when it seems hard, you’ll get there. And you won’t regret it.”

Her shoulders relax, and her lips curve up. “You have no idea how much I needed to hear that right now.”

I smile, glad that I was able to give her what she needed at a random moment in time.

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