Envy

Chapter 4

 

 

Daniel Matherly laid aside the manuscript pages and thoughtfully pinched his lower lip between his thumb and fingers.

 

“What do you think?” Maris asked. “Is it my imagination or is it good?”

 

Taking advantage of the mild morning, they were having breakfast on the patio of Daniel’s Upper East Side townhouse. Terra-cotta pots of blooming flowers provided patches of color within the brick enclosure. A sycamore tree shaded the area.

 

While Daniel was reading the Envy prologue, Maris had helped Maxine put together their meal. Maxine, the Matherlys’ housekeeper, had been practically a member of the family a full decade before Maris was born.

 

This morning she was her cantankerous self, protesting Maris’s presence in her kitchen and criticizing the way she squeezed the fresh orange juice. In truth, the woman loved her like a daughter and had acted as a surrogate since the death of Maris’s mother when she was still in grade school. Maris took the housekeeper’s bossiness for what it was—an expression of her affection.

 

Maris and Daniel had eaten their egg-white omelets, grilled tomatoes, and whole-wheat toast in silence while he finished reading the prologue. “Thank you, Maxine,” he said now when she came out to clear away their dishes and pour refills of coffee. “And yes, dear,” he said to Maris, “it’s good.”

 

“I’m glad you think so.”

 

She was pleased with his validation of her opinion, but she also valued his. Her father was perhaps the only person in the world who had read and reread more books than she. If they disagreed on a book, allowances were made for their individual tastes, but both could distinguish good writing from bad.

 

“New writer?”

 

“I don’t know.”

 

He reacted with surprise. “You don’t know?”

 

“This wasn’t a typical submission by any stretch.” She explained how she had come to read the prologue and what little she had learned about the elusive author. She ended by recounting her predawn telephone conversation with him.

 

When she finished, she asked crossly, “Who goes strictly by initials? It’s juvenile and just plain weird. Like The Artist Formerly Known as Prince.”

 

Daniel chuckled as he stirred cream substitute into his last permitted cup of coffee for the day. “I think it adds a dash of mystery and romance.”

 

She scoffed at that. “He’s a pain in the butt.”

 

“No doubt. Contrariness falls under the character description of a good writer. Or a bad one, for that matter.”

 

As he contemplated the enigmatic author, Maris studied her father. When did he get so old? she thought with alarm. His hair had been white almost for as long as she could remember, but it had only begun to thin. Her mother, Rosemary, had been the widowed Daniel’s second wife and fifteen years his junior. By the time Maris was born, he was well into middle age.

 

But he’d remained physically active. He watched his diet, grudgingly but conscientiously. He’d quit smoking cigarettes years ago, although he refused to surrender his pipe. Because he had borne the responsibility of rearing her as a single parent, he had wisely slowed down the aging process as much as it was possible to do.

 

Only recently had the years seemed to catch up with him. To avoid aggravating an arthritic hip, he sometimes used a cane for additional support. He complained that it made him look decrepit. That was too strong a word, but secretly Maris agreed that the cane detracted from the robust bearing always associated with him. The liver spots on his hands had increased in number and grown darker. His reflexes seemed not to be as quick as even a few months ago.

 

But his eyes were as bright and cogent as ever when he turned to her and asked, “I wonder what all that was about?”

 

“All what, Dad?”

 

“Failing to provide a return address or telephone number. Then the telephone call this morning. His claims that the prologue was crap. Et cetera.”

 

She left her chair and moved to a potted geranium to pluck off a dead leaf that Maxine had overlooked. Maris had urged the housekeeper to get eyeglasses, but she claimed that her eyesight was the same now as it had been thirty years ago. To which Maris had said, “Exactly. You’ve always been as blind as a bat and too vain to do anything about it.”

 

Absently twirling the brown leaf by its stem, she considered her father’s question. “He wanted to be sought and found, didn’t he?”

 

She knew she’d given the correct response when Daniel beamed a smile on her. This was the method by which he had helped her with her lessons all through school. He never gave her the answers but guided her to think the question through until she arrived at the correct answer through her own deductive reasoning.

 

“He didn’t have to call,” she continued. “If he hadn’t wanted to be found, he could have thrown away my telephone numbers. Instead he calls at a time of day when he’s practically guaranteed to have the advantage.”

 

“And protests too loudly and too much.”

 

Frowning, she returned to her wrought-iron chair. “I don’t know, Dad. He seemed genuinely angry. Especially about the deputy sheriff.”

 

“He probably was, and I can’t say that I blame him. But he couldn’t resist the temptation to establish contact with you and hear what you had to say about his work.”

 

“Which I think is compelling. That prologue has me wondering about the young man in the boat. Who is he? What’s his story? What caused the fight between him and his friend?”

 

“Envy,” Daniel supplied.

 

“Which is provocative, don’t you think? Envy of what? Who envied whom?”

 

“I can see that the prologue served its purpose. The writer has got you thinking about it and asking questions.”

 

“Yes, he does, damn him.”

 

“So what are you going to do?”

 

“Try and establish some kind of professional dialogue. If that’s possible to do with such a jerk. I don’t fool myself into thinking it will be easy to work with this character.”

 

“Do you even know his telephone number?”

 

“I do now. Thanks to caller ID. I checked it this morning and recognized the area code I called yesterday.”

 

“Ah, the miracles of advanced technology. In my day—”

 

“In your day?” she repeated with a laugh. “It’s still your day.”

 

Reaching for his speckled hand, she patted it fondly. One day he would be gone, and she didn’t know how she was going to survive that loss. She’d grown up in this house, and it hadn’t been easy to leave it, even when she went away to college. Her bedroom had been on the third floor—still was if she ever wanted to use it. Daniel’s bedroom was on the second floor, and he was determined to keep it there despite the pain involved in getting up and down the stairs.

 

Maris recalled Christmas mornings, waking up before daylight, racing down to his room and begging him to get up and go downstairs with her to see what Santa Claus had left beneath the tree.

 

She had thousands of happy and vivid recollections of her childhood—the two of them ice-skating in Central Park, strolling through street fairs eating hot dogs or falafel while rummaging in the secondhand book stalls, having high tea at the Plaza following a matinee, reading in front of the fireplace in his study, hosting formal dinner parties in the dining room, and sharing midnight snacks with Maxine in the kitchen. All her memories were good.

 

Because she had been a late-in-life only child, he had doted on her. Her mother’s death could have been a heartache that wedged them apart. Instead, it had forged the bond between father and daughter. His discipline had been firm and consistent, but only rarely necessary. Generally, she had been obedient, never wanting to incur his disfavor.

 

The most rebellious offense she’d ever committed was to sneak out one night to meet a group of friends at a club that Daniel had placed off-limits. When she returned home in the wee hours she discovered just how vigilant a parent her father was—the kitchen window through which she had sneaked out had been locked behind her.

 

Forced to ring the front doorbell, she’d had to wait on the stoop for what seemed an excruciating eternity until Daniel came to let her in. He didn’t yell at her. He didn’t lecture. He simply told her that she must pay the consequences of making a bad choice. She’d been grounded for a month. The worst of the punishment, however, had been his disappointment in her. She never sneaked out again.

 

She’d been indulged but not spoiled. In exchange for spending money, she was required to do chores. Her grades were closely monitored. She was praised for doing well more frequently than she was punished for mistakes. Mostly she had been loved, and Daniel had made certain every day of her life that she knew it.

 

“So you think I should pursue Envy?” she asked him now.

 

“Absolutely. The author has challenged you, although he might not have done it intentionally and doesn’t even realize that he has. You, Maris Matherly-Reed, can’t resist a challenge.” He’d practically quoted from an article recently written about her in a trade journal.

 

“Didn’t I read that somewhere?” she teased.

 

“And you certainly can’t resist a good book.”

 

“I think that’s why I’m so excited about this, Dad,” she said, growing serious. “In my present capacity, most of my duties revolve around publishing. I work on the book once all the writing and editing have been done. And I love doing what I do.

 

“But I didn’t realize until yesterday when I read this prologue how much I’d missed the editing process. These days I read the final, polished version of a manuscript just before I send it to production. I can’t dwell on it because there are a million decisions about another dozen books that are demanding my attention. I’ve missed working one-on-one with an author. Helping with character development. Pointing out weaknesses in the plot. God, I love that.”

 

“It’s the reason you chose to enter publishing,” Daniel remarked. “You wanted to be an editor. You were good at it. So good that you’ve worked your way up through the ranks until now your responsibilities have evolved away from that first love. I think it would be stimulating and fun for you to return to it.”

 

“I think so too, but let’s not jump the gun,” she said wryly. “I don’t know if Envy is worth my attention or not. The book hasn’t even been written yet. My gut instinct—”

 

“Which I trust implicitly.”

 

“—tells me that it’s going to be good. It’s got texture, which could be fleshed out even more. It’s heavy on the southern overtones, which you know I love.”

 

“Like The Vanquished.”

 

Suddenly her balloon of enthusiasm burst. “Yes.”

 

After a beat or two, Daniel asked, “How is Noah?”

 

As a reader, as well as his wife, she’d been massively disappointed that Noah hadn’t followed his first novel with a second. Daniel knew that, so mentioning the title of Noah’s single book was a natural segue into an inquiry about him.

 

“You know how he is, Dad. You talk to him several times a day.”

 

“I was asking as a father-in-law, not as a colleague.”

 

To avoid her father’s incisive gaze, her eyes strayed to the building directly behind them. The ivy-covered brick wall enclosing Daniel’s patio blocked her view of the neighboring building’s ground floor, but she watched a tabby cat in a second-story window stretch and rub himself against the safety bars.

 

Maxine poked her head outside. “Can I get either of you anything?”

 

Daniel answered for both of them. “No, thank you. We’re fine.”

 

“Let me know.”

 

She disappeared back inside. Maris remained quiet for a time, tracing the pattern of her linen place mat with the pad of her index finger. When she raised her head, her father had assumed the listening posture he always did when he knew there was something on her mind. His chin was cupped in his hand, his index finger lay along his cheek, pointing toward his wiry white eyebrow.

 

He never pried, never pressured her into talking, but always patiently waited her out. When she was ready to open up, she would, and not a moment before. It was a trait she had inherited from him.

 

“Noah came home very late last night,” she began. Without going into detail, she gave him the gist of their argument. “We ended up lovers and friends, but I’m still upset about it.”

 

Hesitantly Daniel asked, “Did you overreact?”

 

“Do you think I did?”

 

“I wasn’t there. But it sounds to me as though Noah had a logical explanation.”

 

“I suppose.”

 

He frowned thoughtfully. “Are you thinking that Noah has reverted to the habits he had while living a bachelor’s life?”

 

Knowing the admiration and respect her father had for Noah, she was reluctant to recite a litany of complaints against him, which, when spoken aloud, would probably sound like whining at best and paranoia at worst. She could also appreciate that using her father as a sounding board placed him in an awkward position. He wasn’t only Noah’s father-in-law, he was his employer.

 

Daniel had brought Noah into their publishing house three years ago because he had proved himself to be the smartest, shrewdest publisher in New York, save Daniel himself. When Maris and Noah’s relationship became more social than professional, Daniel had expressed some reservations and cautioned her against an office romance. But he had given his approval when Noah, after being with Matherly Press for one year, confided in Daniel his plans to marry his daughter. He had even offered to resign in exchange for Maris’s hand. Daniel wouldn’t hear of it and had embraced Noah as his son-in-law with the same level of enthusiasm as he had hired him as vice president and business manager of his publishing house.

 

For almost two years, they had successfuly managed to keep their professional and personal roles separate. Airing her wifely grievances could jeopardize the balance. Daniel wouldn’t want to say too much or too little, wouldn’t want to choose one side over the other or trespass into marital territory where a father-in-law didn’t belong.

 

On the other hand, Maris needed to vent, and her father had always been her most trusted confidant. “In answer to your question, Dad, I’m not thinking anything that specific. I don’t believe that Noah’s having an affair. Not really.”

 

“Something’s bothering you. What?”

 

“Over the last few months, I don’t feel like I’ve had Noah’s full attention. I’ve had very little of his attention,” she corrected with a rueful little laugh.

 

“The champagne fizz of a honeymoon doesn’t last forever, Maris.”

 

“I know that. It’s just…” She trailed off, then sighed. “Maybe I’m too much a romantic.”

 

“Don’t blame yourself for this stall. It doesn’t have to be anyone’s fault. Marriages go through periods like this. Even good marriages. Dry spells, if you will.”

 

“I know. I just hope he isn’t getting tired of me. We’re coming up on our two-year anniversary. That’s got to be some kind of record for him.”

 

“You knew his record when you married him,” he reminded her gently. “He had a solid reputation as a ladies’ man.”

 

“Which I accepted because I loved him. Because I had been in love with him since I read The Vanquished.”

 

“And out of all those women, Noah returned your love and chose to marry you.”

 

She smiled wistfully, then shook her head with self-deprecation. “You’re right, Dad. He did. Chalk this up to hormones. I’m feeling neglected. That’s all.”

 

“And I must assume some of the blame for that.”

 

“What are you talking about?”

 

“I’ve vested Noah with an enormous amount of responsibility. He’s doing not only his job, which, God knows, is demanding enough, but he’s begun taking up the slack for me as well. I’ve slowed down, forcing him to accelerate. I’ve suggested that he hire someone to shoulder some of his duties.”

 

“He has difficulty delegating.”

 

“Which is why I should have insisted that he bring someone else on board. I’ll make a point to see that he does. In the meantime, I think it would be a good idea for the two of you to go away together for a few days. Bermuda, perhaps. Get some sun. Drink too many tropical drinks. Spend a lot of time in bed.”

 

She smiled at his candor, but it was a sad smile. He’d said practically those same words last year when he’d packed them off to Aruba for a long weekend. They’d gone in the hope of returning pregnant. Although they’d made every effort to conceive and had enjoyed trying, they hadn’t been successful. Maris had been greatly disappointed. Maybe that’s when she and Noah had started drifting apart, though the rift had only recently become noticeable.

 

Daniel sensed that he’d touched on a topic best forgotten, or at least left closed for the present. “Take some time away together, Maris,” he urged. “Away from the pressures of the office, the zaniness of the city. Give yourselves a chance to get back on track.”

 

Although she wouldn’t say this to Daniel, she didn’t share his confidence that spending time in bed would solve their problem and set things right. Their disagreement this morning had ended with sex, but she wouldn’t call it intimacy. To her it had felt that they were doing what was most expedient to end the quarrel, that they had taken the easy way out. Their bodies had gone through the familiar motions, but their hearts weren’t in it.

 

Noah had defused her with flattery, which, in hindsight, seemed ingratiating and patronizing. She’d been genuinely angry, which wasn’t an ideal time to be told how beautiful she was. Falling into bed together had been a graceful way to end an argument that neither had wanted to have. She hadn’t wanted to accuse him further, and he hadn’t wanted to address her accusations, so they’d made love instead. The implications of all that were deeply troubling.

 

For Daniel’s benefit, she pretended to think over his suggestion of a tropical vacation, then said, “Actually, Dad, I was thinking of going away by myself for a while.”

 

“Another good option. To the country?”

 

Frequently, when the city became too claustrophobic, she went to their house in rural western Massachusetts and spent long weekends catching up on paperwork and reading manuscripts. In the Berkshires, without the constant interruptions imposed on her in the office, she could concentrate and accomplish much in a relatively short period of time. It was natural for Daniel to assume that she would choose their country house for her retreat.

 

But she shook her head. “I think I’ll go to Georgia.”

 

 

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