What Goes Around

chapter NINE


Jess has sorted my bedroom.

All the wrappers the paramedics left and my display purposes only towel have been tidied away but I can see him lying there dead on the floor as I walk in.

I step over him.

I can’t stand to get into the bed, so I lie on top of it.

I’d have slept in another room, except Jess and Luke are staying over and it would look strange if I went to a spare room, wouldn’t it?

Wouldn’t I want our bed?

Wouldn’t his scent give me comfort?

I’m still wearing the smock.

I don’t have the energy to change.

Finally I’ve taken some headache tablets and they are starting to kick in.

I think I’m numb really.

I’m just so tired and so relieved to be able to close my eyes.

And just as I do, just when finally I escape …

I hear Charlotte cry.