Million Love Songs

‘Good diving out there, I hear,’ I tease.

‘At this rate, I’ll never find out,’ Joe says as we arrive at the pub. He stops under the light of a street lamp and turns to me. ‘That was a pretty heavy conversation for openers.’ He grins at me and I notice that he has a beautiful smile. It softens his face and takes years off him. ‘Sorry about that.’

I grin back. ‘How very un-British of us. We should have been talking about the weather.’

‘Sorry,’ he says again. ‘There’s no one I can really talk to about it. My mates just think my ex is an out-and-out bitch yet I’m trying my best to keep a slightly more balanced view of the situation for the kids’ sake.’

‘That sounds like a healthier option.’

‘Yeah,’ he agrees. ‘It’s a noble sentiment, but some days it’s easier than others.’ He opens the door to the pub and we step inside. ‘I’ll buy you a drink by way of apology for bending your ear with my break-up woes.’

‘I’ll just have a diet Coke please. Driving.’ I’m going to end up looking like a glass of this stuff if I drink much more of it, when I’d really rather look like a glass of champagne.

He steers me to the group from the dive club and introduces me. ‘This is Ruby, lads. She completed her first session tonight with flying colours.’ Then he leaves me to chat to them while he pushes through the crush of people to the bar and gets our drinks.

My eyes follow him. Hmm. It would be very easy to fall for someone like Joe Edwards. Someone exactly like Joe Edwards but who wasn’t recently divorced and had two kids.

Remember that, Ruby Brown.





Chapter Nine





If you were looking for a quiet pub in which to have a romantic get-together, this isn’t the place. It’s rough, it’s noisy and the heavy metal music’s turned up loud – no Kylie or Take That here. Oh no. The base level is Led Zeppelin and it seems to get heavier from there up. It’s also accompanied by a constant clank from the bank of fruit machines on the far wall. However, the crowd from the sub-aqua club are friendly and I note with relief that a few more women have joined the group.

Joe comes back, hands me my drink and, thankfully, stays by my side to chat. A number of people come over to say hello and it’s clear that he’s a popular member of the group. He has an easy way with him, a ready smile. Some people are natural team leaders and, from what little I’ve seen, my guess is that Joe is one of them. I listen to chatter about air tanks, dry suits and rebreathers and understand none of it. No idea. Every sport, it seems, has its jargon and diving is clearly no exception.

‘Did you finalise the dive day, Joe?’ someone asks.

He nods. ‘Yeah. We’re off to Quarry Hill Cove again. You need to get your name on the list. It always fills up quickly.’ Joe turns to me. ‘You should come with us.’

‘Me? After one session in the pool? I’m not sure I could cope with that.’

‘You won’t be ready to dive in open water, but come along for the ride. It will give you more of an idea of what it’s all about and you can get to know some of the other people in the club.’

‘I don’t want to be a spare part.’

‘We’re always happy to have an extra pair of hands to help with the equipment. There’s a nice pub there and we get something to eat afterwards. It’s not a bad day out, if the weather’s good.’

‘There seems to be a lot of socialising involved with this diving lark.’

Joe laughs. ‘We do our best. Come,’ he urges. ‘I have a spare seat in my car. I’ll give you a lift, if you like. You don’t even have to drive.’

‘It’s sounding very tempting,’ I admit. ‘I’ll have to check my shifts though. When is it?’

He reels off a date that’s tantalisingly close. ‘Call me tomorrow, if you can make it.’

‘I’ll do that.’ He reels off his number and I punch it into my phone. Then he downs his drink. ‘I’ve got to shoot. I’m picking the kids up. One’s at football practice, the other’s at her friend’s house and they’ve probably both got homework that they haven’t done yet. Do you want me to walk you back to your car, Ruby?’

‘Yes,’ I say, thinking of the gang of young lads that could still be hanging around there. ‘I should be going too.’ Though I have nothing but an empty flat waiting for me. I need to get a goldfish or something. A cat seems like too much responsibility and too much like giving up on the world.

So I say goodbye to my newfound diving mates and follow Joe out into the night air. There’s a briskness to his pace and I realise that he must be running against the clock. I hurry to keep up with him.

‘Do you have a lot of help with the kids?’ I sound slightly breathless in my bid to match his brisk pace.

‘Hardly any.’ He sighs. ‘My family are scattered all over the place, so I can’t call on them. Mum and Dad moved down to Taunton to be near my sister, so they’re too far away. My brother’s working in Canada on contract for the next couple of years. Not that he’d be much use. He’s got four of his own to keep him occupied.’ He raises an eyebrow. ‘Some of the mums of Daisy’s friends have been great. They’ll step in for taxi duties if I’m stuck and the kids both go to after-school clubs which helps. I don’t like to push it though. I work shifts – not that unsociable – but there are times when I can’t be around for them.’

I guess I’m lucky that most of my family are all local. I couldn’t have managed without them when I split with Simon. Sometimes, though, they can feel a bit too close. Do you know what I mean? I can’t move without my mother wanting to know what I’m up to. Still, as I’m mainly at work or watching telly, she doesn’t have too much to worry about.

‘What do you do?’ It hadn’t occurred to me that Joe might have a day job as well as being a scuba-diving instructor. ‘I thought this was your work.’

‘Diving? No. I wish it was. Diving is my sanity. It’s the only thing that I do for myself. I’m trying to hang on to that. I only volunteer as an instructor. If I know I’ve got people waiting at the pool for me, I’ve an excuse not to miss it. I’m the manager of a community for supported living. That’s what pays the bills.’

‘Sounds interesting.’

‘It’s a great place but it’s fairly full-on. We house mainly adults with learning disabilities. At the moment, we have a lot of Down’s Syndrome residents and they’re fantastic, but they’d have me there 24/7 if they could. You should see the timetable I have to do each week for me and the kids. I’ve got full custody of the children, but Gina’s supposed to have them every other weekend and one night in the week.’

‘You’re having to keep a lot of plates spinning.’

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