“Fucking greedy little thing.” I groan when her whimpers start becoming desperate. The buzz of the vibrator dying off interrupts me from my own pleasure.
Unsure what to do, I stay quiet, wanting more than anything to talk to her, maybe even try to see if I can get her to come over, but I can't imagine she'll respond all that well if I let her know I've been listening in. But fuck me, the thrill of what I’m doing turns me on more than I’ve ever been turned on before.
After another few beats of silence, the vibrator starts back up again. My fist moves back in rhythm, this time faster and rougher to catch up. She’s louder this time, more vocal and it only takes a minute or two for her to find her release, the deep moans of her orgasm not quite enough to pull me over with her.
“Fuck, woman, wait for me this time,” I say on a groan, unable to hold back my frustration. I don’t know if I do it on purpose, or maybe I’m too lost in the moment to control what I’m saying, but whatever the reason, the words still come from my lips, halting any chance of me getting my happy ending.
Fuck me.
Again.
Two
Liberty
“What the hell am I doing?” I think I speak the words aloud, but I can’t be sure. A thick fog encases my head in a pre-orgasm high. I’m not sure of anything anymore as I barrel toward some kind of alternate universe where I do crazy shit and don’t give any fucks.
Until the rational part of my brain finds its way through the fog, and clarity finds its way back into my normal universe.
They say moments of clarity hit you hard. Like suddenly a deep understanding smacks you in the face. Your vision becomes unclouded, and a truth that’s been out of your reach rushes at you. It’s in that second your perception of reality becomes so clear you can’t begin to describe it.
Some call it beautiful, some say it can be saddening, some even compare it to the moment your drug of choice washes over you, offering a moment of escape.
I wish I could I say my moment of clarity is an epiphany or some kind of life-defining moment that showed me where my messed-up life is going.
No, my moment hits me as the first wave of the orgasm I’ve been chasing the last few minutes washes over me.
“Fuck, woman, wait for me this time.” His voice pulls me from my haze first, reminding me how messed up I am.
Heat covers my body, not from the life-altering orgasm, but from embarrassment.
Without thinking rationally, I throw my vibrator to the floor and freeze, afraid to move, as a low moan pauses on my lips. The thump of my beating heart, almost syncing in perfect rhythm to the throb drumming between my legs.
Jesus, please tell me he didn’t hear me.
“Don’t go shy on me now, babe.” He half chuckles, half growls, and even though there is a wall between us, the words wash over me; Goose bumps prickle my skin as if his warm breath whispered over me.
Shit.
Shit.
Shit.
Slowly, as if by some freak of nature, apartment nine can see me through the wall, I roll off the bed and find myself on all fours.
Really, Liberty?
Fully committed to my actions, I slowly army crawl my way to the nearest exit.
A strong tap on the wall halts my escape followed by, “You still there?” Another wave of humiliation crashes over me when I take stock of my predicament.
If I don’t get out of here fast, I’ll be drowning in so much embarrassment, nothing will resuscitate me.
Unable to form a coherent thought, and not willing to engage with the pervert, I continue to low crawl my way out of my bedroom and into my bathroom. Closing the door, I stand, and quickly walk to the shower. After turning the faucet on, I strip the rest of my clothes off, then step under the spray of the water.
Jesus, that was close.
I have no idea what I was thinking. In fact, I know I wasn’t. Which scares me even more.
I, Liberty Jenson, would never take risks like this. If asked what prompted this change in me, I’d answer with two things.
Apartment nine.
And a self-appointed sex sabbatical.
It all started when I moved into my new apartment. At first, I was excited, ready for a fresh start. After a messy break-up, which included dealing with a douche ex who didn’t know how to keep his dick in his pants, I needed a new place. Somewhere closer to town this time, secure, and most importantly, affordable. However, finding a place close to the city, which was secure enough to make me feel safe and would still leave me enough money left over from my program director’s wage, proved to be a feat. After searching for five weeks, I was about to give up, accept defeat and move in with my mom and dad again. I mean it wasn’t the worst thing that could happen to a single thirty-year-old woman.
Right?
Luckily for me, I didn’t have to resort to such desperate measures when this place came up two weeks ago. After a quick walk through, I fell in love with the two bedrooms, one bath, and open kitchen living area. I filled out the paperwork, paid my deposit, a month’s rent in advance, and moved in five days later.