I sit on my bed for a few minutes, listening for sounds beyond my door. I only saw Ava for a few minutes yesterday as I was bringing my stuff in with my uncle. She was headed out to work. I didn't ask about Giles, but I didn't see him at all. By seven o'clock, I was completely moved in but my roommates were nowhere to be seen. I'm not sure what I was expecting, but living with two other people and not seeing either one of them for the entire night certainly wasn't it.
I wonder if Giles is home. And if he's in bed, I wonder if he's alone. In my mind's eye, I picture the hall outside of my room and, on the other end, the door to his room. Nerves flutter at the base of my stomach.
It's an easy assumption that the guy gets around. I might have guessed it even if Ava hadn't insinuated as much with her small comments about him whoring it up after his breakup. The guy's got the type of looks that lend to not having issues picking up a companion for the night. Living on a college campus, I'm sure the options are plentiful.
It doesn't sound like anyone's out in the living room or kitchen, so it's probably safe for me to go out and grab breakfast. Yet, even that doesn't give me the urge to go into the hall right now. Last night, feeling restless from being in an empty house, I drove to Target and wandered around the aisles for hours, mentally making a long list of the decor I'll buy when I can justify the expense. I did pick up a pair of white curtains that were on sale, along with a cheap curtain rod.
And now, as I spy the tool bag my uncle accidentally left behind, I decide I want to put up the curtains. Kind of a strange thing to want to do first thing in the morning, but somehow I'm convinced a simple pair of curtains will wrap me in a setting of familiarity and comfort.
Ten minutes later, I'm ready to admit that maybe this wasn't a good idea. The tallest thing in my room is my bed so I have to extend my arms over my head, trying to secure the hooks of the curtain rod to the wall. Wouldn't be a problem if this electric screwdriver didn't weigh an extra pound every second. A stray strand of hair loosens and falls across my face, forcing me to blow out a huff of air to get it out of my eyes.
"Damn it," I hiss, arm muscles burning as I try to move the holes of the hook back into the right position. The angle I'm holding the piece of metal is awkward enough and it doesn't help I can barely see what I'm doing.
"That looks like a fun time."
The unexpected sarcastic voice jars me to the point that the hook fumbles from my fingers and falls to the bed, bouncing onto the floor. I turn, slightly frazzled by the interruption, to see Giles standing inside my room.
Inside my room. Not at the doorway, not hesitating with his hands still gripping the door, but a good five steps inside, with the door ajar behind him.
"What are you doing in here?"
"I should ask you. You look like you're struggling."
A sliver of embarrassment runs through me. Putting up a curtain rod isn't freaking rocket science. But I had to go and make it difficult by thinking I could stand on my tiptoes without even being able to see what I'm doing properly.
"You can't just come into my room without asking," I say, firmly.
"I heard power tools and grunting. I was concerned." He holds out a hand. "Give it to me. I'll screw it in for you."
His eyes are always slightly narrowed and slanted in a way that makes him look mischievous even when he's serious. His playful expression is almost disarming. But it leaves a prickle of heat on my cheeks. I didn't miss his innuendo.
The electric screwdriver hangs loosely at my side, my fingers clutched over the handle. Standing on the elevated platform of my bed in my pajama shorts in front of a stranger leaves me feeling exposed. It doesn't help that his sights lower not so briefly to take in my attire.
My stomach sinks at the realization I'm not wearing a bra, a fact that will be very obvious beyond the thin material of my cotton t-shirt.
I had C cups as a twelve-year-old and these suckers didn't stop growing until I was eighteen. It wasn't good for me as a kid, having a woman's figure before I even understood that it changed the way people looked at me, the way they treated me. A lot of my friends were jealous of the attention I got from guys, but I hated it. While other girls were able to wear cute, frilly clothes, I stuck to loose fitting t-shirts in an attempt to hide my frame. But even that didn't keep me from being subjected to unwanted attention from men twice and even three times my age. It didn't keep rumors from spreading around my middle school that I was a whore even while I had been too shy to even kiss a boy. My curves became something I was made to feel self-conscious of. All because men couldn't be bothered not to ogle me like a piece of meat on display.
I push a loose strand of hair behind my ear and say, "I'm fine. You can go."
"Don't be ridiculous. I'm taller than you by at least a foot," he says, gaze dragging over me again as though my height is written on my body. "Come on, let me do it. It'll take me two minutes."
Am I being ridiculous? His words remind me of arguments I used to have with my older sister, where I'd stand my ground on some weak subject and she'd say, Really, Julia, is this the hill you want to fight and die on? Is it really that big of a deal?
The hill I stand on this time is my bed but, yeah, guess I'm just as stubborn as ever. I don't understand why he's insisting, like he's so sure I can't possibly put up these curtains without him.
"I can do it myself," I say, pulling back a fraction.
I'm unprepared when Giles reaches out in an attempt to snatch the tool from my hand. My finger slips, and a sudden drilling sound erupts followed by a sharp groan of pain. I freeze, mortified that I've severed his finger as Giles curses loudly.
When he pulls his hand back, there's an angry red mark on the back of it, right where his thumb meets his wrist. A small section of skin has been scraped off and blood is quickly pooling there. I drop the tool onto the bed, the start of an apology on my parted lips. I grab his hand without thinking.
"Shit, let me see."
"It's just a scratch." He yanks his hand back, already turning away when he throws his other hand in the air and adds, "Good luck putting up your own damn curtains."
My guilt dissipates at his rude tone and the need to call after him as he disappears past the doorframe wins out. "I never asked for your help."
He lets the door slam shut behind him and I turn back to the window. I'm breathing hard, my pulse is quick in my ears, and there's a strange swirl of annoyance and determination growing inside me.
He can go lick his wound somewhere else for all I care. I know he thinks I can't do it, but I'm going to hang this damn curtain rod on my own if it's the last thing I do.
Chapter Five
Giles
A DOOR CREAKS OPEN AND I look up from where I sit at the kitchen table. I can't see further down the hall than the bathroom door, but the hesitant footsteps on the hardwood floor tell me Julia's finally coming out of her room.