Snow Like Ashes (Snow Like Ashes, #1)

The third rib breaks and Theron releases a strangled cry into the floor that makes my heart seize. Angra’s eyes flick to mine. He’s smiling with a child’s delight, his hand twisting around the staff as he continues to break Theron’s ribs one by one. I can stop it. I can stop it if I just tell him who I am—

“I’ll make your prince watch,” Herod whispers.

He made Gregg watch. He kept him chained to a wall in his room while Crystalla was kept in a cage, a doll that Angra made Herod take out and play with at his bidding. Angra showed her a Winterian’s place in Spring by having Herod torture her to death in ways a body can’t fathom.

Theron groans from the floor as Angra finishes healing the ribs he shattered. Herod finally releases me and I fall on top of Theron like my body can shield him from Angra’s magic.

“Stop,” I mumble into Theron’s shoulder. “Stop. He’s not a part of this. This is between us, Season and Season. This isn’t Cordell’s war!”

Angra laughs. The sound pulls me up, my mistake ringing in my ears.

“No, you’re quite right.” He turns to Herod. “Go get 1-2072, 1-3218, and 1-3219. I promised R-19 that you could have them once you’re done with—”

“No!” My scream tears through the throne room so loud and so desperate I can feel the rocks tremble. All around me, the darkness of the obsidian seeps into my vision, painting everything I see and feel a startling black. Can I use the conduit magic to stop them, this, everything? What can my magic even do? I can only affect Winterians, give them strength or endurance or health—

I think Theron takes me into his arms. I think he whispers something in my ear, but I’m screaming now, lashing out as soldiers come in and haul us up. I can’t hear anything beyond the roar of blood in my head, the horrifying image of Herod sneering at me as he turns, pauses, smiles again. Walks down the throne room and leaves through the two heavy doors with such controlled grace. He’s going to get Nessa and her brothers. He’s going to kill them—

“Take them to Herod’s chamber,” Angra orders. “If she feels like talking, bring her to me instantly. No matter her state.”

I scream again, fingers tearing at the soldiers who drag us away. I will not let Nessa or Conall or Garrigan or myself or anyone die like this.

The soldiers don’t care. They pin my arms back and carry me up stairs, down halls, weaving through Angra’s obsidian palace. Everything is decorated with the same heart-achingly poetic spring-in-darkness motif, colorful etchings of vines and flowers dug into the black rock. The vines wrap around us like the words in Nessa’s memory cave.

Someday we will be more than words in the dark.

Bithai had a poem. A beautiful poem like the one Theron wrote. But Winter has no poem, just those words scrawled in the dark and that one sentence, that one desperate plea that shakes through my body with a frantic need.

The soldiers throw open a door in a second-floor hall. A room spreads out before me, a canopy bed against the back corner, wide clear windows along the southern wall, gleaming wooden floors that the soldiers drag me across until we stop by—

A cage. Barely big enough for me to sit up in. They open the door and toss me in and lock it before I can even breathe.

One of the soldiers slips the key onto Herod’s desk.

I follow his movements and my attention freezes on the one object I never expected to see again: my chakram. My original chakram, which Herod stole so long ago, sits prominently on his desk like a prized trophy. Exactly like a prized trophy, in the same way I’m a trophy too.

So close. My weapon, so close and yet so useless.

I lunge against the cage, the bars groaning where they’re bolted into the floor. Nothing gives, and the soldiers laugh as they march out of the room.

Across from me, the other soldiers chain Theron to the wall. They punch him in the stomach, his body slamming back into the wall with a sickening crack. Then they leave us, shutting the door like they can forget what will happen.

I grip the bars, blinking away a foggy veil of tears as I keep my focus on Theron, locking onto his deep brown eyes and the sparkle behind them, the light that I didn’t even realize I’d missed. He stares back at me, the tension in his face unwinding in exhaustion, anger, at seeing me in a cage in Herod’s chamber, waiting for that monster to return and slowly torture me. And knowing that for all his training and power in Cordell, Theron has no power here. He’s just as close and just as useless as my chakram.

“How did Angra—” Theron starts, one of his hands pressing tenderly on his healed ribs. He shakes his head, closing his eyes in a quick flicker of repulsion. “Never mind. I don’t think I want to know.”

I draw in a wavering breath, ready to explain, but the words fall flat and lifeless in my throat. “What happened?” is all I can manage.

Theron drops to the floor, the chains leading from his wrists clanking against the wood. Blood trails down his face, fresh and scarlet, dripping onto the collar of his tattered military uniform, Cordell’s green and gold caked in red. “Bithai survived,” he says.

I open my mouth. No, I meant what happened to lead us here. What happened to get us so far gone, so far from—

“Shortly after you fell, Cordell overcame Spring’s infantry. They were forced to retreat. They couldn’t compete with our conduit; it was the only thing that saved us. But my father refused to retaliate.” Theron winces, working out a pain in his shoulder.

I can’t grasp what he’s saying. I shake my head, drop my face into my hands. The colors from the hall swirl in my memory, Angra’s black and pastel-green and pink mixing with the brown and maroon of Herod’s chamber. Green vines crawl around me like words in the dark. Memories. Nessa’s memories.

Herod is bringing her here. She’ll see him kill me.

“My father refused to go after them,” Theron continues. “He refused to go after you. He said he wouldn’t risk so much for a worthless Season anymore.”

I start rocking back and forth. Herod will kill Nessa too. Will they make Theron watch that? How long will they keep him here before he dies too?

Theron runs a hand down his face. “Mather nearly killed him. Drew a sword and everything. But my father still wouldn’t . . . He’s so proud. So selfish. I hate him.”

I can’t use my conduit magic to get out of this cage. I can’t use it to free Theron. I don’t even know what it can be used for beyond the basic functions of kingdom life. How can it help me in this situation? What can I do?

“I hate the prejudice. I’m tired of watching my father hoard our power when we could be working together, Rhythm and Season, against the true evil in this world. I knew what would make him act. If Spring had me, my father would finally do something about Angra.” Theron laughs an empty laugh, his eyes darting around the room. “Starting to rethink my plan now.”

That makes me stop. Makes my whirring thoughts stumble against a sudden burst of clarity, and I hear everything he said slowly, his words coming to me through my fog.

He handed himself over to Angra. He let Spring catch him.

I gape across the space between us. “You wanted Angra to capture you?”

Theron’s eyes jump to mine. Connecting us, just us now. Together. “Yes.”

A smile uncurls on my face. It feels so wrong and yet so wonderful, how much I need to smile at him.

Something pounds in the hallway, something like . . . footsteps. Coming closer.

I cling to the bars of the cage. “I’m Hannah’s daughter. I’m the queen of Winter,” I hear myself say.

Theron frowns and leans forward, his chains rattling. “I—”

The door to the chamber flies open and Herod’s dark mass barrels in. He hurls himself at his desk, scrambling through papers and books until he grabs the key and holds it triumphantly in a tight-fisted grip. “I’m going to destroy you,” he hisses, eyes burning into mine.




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