He smiles his shy smile and my heart clenches. "Oh, Mrs. Grey, what am I going to do with you?"
"You're going to answer my question. What would you like to eat?"
"Something light. Surprise me," he says, mirroring my words from the playroom earlier.
"I'll see what I can do." I sashay out of his study and into the kitchen. My heart sinks when I see Mrs. Jones is there.
"Hello, Mrs. Jones."
"Mrs. Grey. Are you ready for something to eat?"
"Um . . ."
She is stirring something in a pot on the stove that smells delicious.
"I was going to make subs for Mr. Grey and me."
She pauses for a heartbeat. "Sure," she says. "Mr. Grey likes French bread—there is some in the freezer cut to sub length. I'd be happy to make it for you, ma'am."
"I know. But I'd like to do this."
"I understand. I'll give you some room."
"What are you cooking?"
"This is a bolognaise sauce. It can be eaten anytime. I'll freeze it." She smiles warmly and turns the heat right down.
"Um—so what does Christian like in a, um . . . sub?" I frown, struck by what I've just said. Does Mrs. Jones understand the inference?
"Mrs. Grey, you could put just about anything in a sandwich, and as long as it's on French bread, he'll eat it." We grin at each other.
"Okay, thank you." I skip to the freezer and find the French bread cut to size in Ziplock bags. I place two of them on a plate, pop them into the microwave, and set it to defrost.
Mrs. Jones has disappeared. I frown as I return to the fridge to search for in-gredients. I suppose it will be up to me to set the parameters by which Mrs. Jones and I will work together. I like the idea of cooking for Christian on the weekends.
Mrs. Jones is more than welcome to do it during the week—the last thing I'll want to do when I come home from work is cook. Hmm . . . a bit like Christian's routine with his submissives. I shake my head. I mustn't overthink this. I find some ham in the fridge, and in the crisper a perfectly ripe avocado.
As I am adding a touch of salt and lemon to the mashed avocado, Christian emerges from his study with the plans for the new house in his hands. He puts them on the breakfast bar, saunters toward me, and wraps his arms around me, kissing my neck.
"Barefoot and in the kitchen," he murmurs.
"Shouldn't that be barefoot and pregnant in the kitchen?" I smirk.
He stills, his whole body tensing against me. "Not yet," he declares, apprehension clear in his voice.
"No! Not yet!"
He relaxes. "On that we can agree, Mrs. Grey."
"You do want kids though, don't you?"
"Sure, yes. Eventually. But I'm not ready to share you yet." He kisses my neck again.
Oh . . . share?
"What are you making? Looks good." He kisses me behind my ear, and I know it's to distract me. A delicious tingle travels down my spine.
"Subs." I smirk, recovering my sense of humor.
He smiles against my neck and nips my earlobe. "My favorite."
I poke him with my elbow.
"Mrs. Grey, you wound me." He clutches his side as if in pain.
"Wimp," I mutter disapprovingly.
"Wimp?" he utters in disbelief. He slaps my behind, making me yelp. "Hurry up with my food, wench. And later I'll show you how wimpy I can be." He slaps me playfully once more and goes to the fridge.
"Would you like a glass of wine?" he asks.
"Please."
Christian spreads Gia's plans out over the breakfast bar. She really has some spectacular ideas.
"I love her proposal to make the entire downstairs back wall glass, but . . ."
"But?" Christian prompts.
I sigh. "I don't want to take all the character out of the house."
"Character?"
"Yes. What Gia is proposing is quite radical, but . . . well . . . I fell in love with the house as it is . . . warts and all."
Christian's brow furrows as if this is anathema to him.
"I kind of like it the way it is," I whisper. Is this going to make him mad?
He regards me steadily. "I want this house to be the way you want. Whatever you want. It's yours."
"I want you to like it, too. To be happy in it, too."
"I'll be happy wherever you are. It's that simple, Ana." His gaze holds mine.
He is utterly, utterly sincere. I blink at him as my heart expands. Holy cow, he really does love me.
"Well"—I swallow, fighting the small knot of emotion that catches in my throat—"I like the glass wall. Maybe we could ask her to incorporate it into the house a little more sympathetically."
Christian grins. "Sure. Whatever you want. What about the plans for upstairs and the basement?"
"I'm cool with those."
"Good."
Okay . . . I steel myself to ask the million-dollar question. "Do you want to put in a playroom?" I feel the oh-so-familiar flush creep up my face as I ask.
Christian's eyebrows shoot up.
"Do you?" he replies, surprised and amused at once.
I shrug. "Um . . . if you want."
He regards me for a moment. "Let's leave our options open for the moment.
After all, this will be a family home."
I'm surprised by the stab of disappointment I feel. I guess he's right . . . although when are we going to have a family? It could be years.
"Besides, we can improvise." He smirks.
"I like improvising," I whisper.
He grins. "There's something I want to discuss." Christian points to the master bedroom, and we start a detailed discussion on bathrooms and separate walk-in closets.
When we finish, it's nine thirty in the evening.
"Are you going back to work?" I ask as Christian rolls up the plans.
"Not if you don't want me to." He smiles. "What would you like to do?"
"We could watch TV." I don't want to read, and I don't want to go to bed . . . yet.
"Okay," Christian agrees willingly, and I follow him into the TV room.
We have sat here three, maybe four times total, and Christian usually reads a book. He's not interested in television at all. I curl up beside him on the couch, tucking my legs beneath me and resting my head against his shoulder. He switches on the flat-screen television with the remote and flicks mindlessly through the channels.
"Any specific drivel you want to see?"
"You don't like TV much, do you?" I mutter sardonically.
He shakes his head. "Waste of time. But I'll watch something with you."
"I thought we could make out."
He whips his face to mine. "Make out?" He gazes at me as if I've grown two heads. He stops the endless flicking, leaving the TV on an over lit Spanish soap opera.
"Yes." Why is he so horrified?
"We could go to bed and make out."
"We do that all the time. When was the last time you made out in front of the TV?" I ask, shy and teasing at the same time.
He shrugs and shakes his head. Pressing the remote again, he flicks through another few channels before settling on an old episode of The X-Files.
"Christian?"
"I've never done that," he says quietly.
"Never?"
"No."
"Not even with Mrs. Robinson?"
He snorts. "Baby, I did a lot of things with Mrs. Robinson. Making out was not one of them." He smirks at me and then narrows his eyes with amused curiosity. "Have you?"
I flush. "Of course." Well kind of . . .
"What! Who with?"
Oh no. I do not want to have this discussion.
"Tell me," he persists.
I gaze down at my knotted fingers. He gently covers my hands with one of his. When I glance up at him, he's smiling at me.
"I want to know. So I can beat whoever it was to a pulp."
I giggle. "Well, the first time . . ."
"The first time! There's more than one f*cker?" He growls.
I giggle again. "Why so surprised, Mr. Grey?"
He frowns briefly, runs a hand through his hair, and looks at me as if seeing me in a completely different light. He shrugs. "I just am. I mean—given your lack of experience."
I flush. "I've certainly made up for that since I met you."
"You have." He grins. "Tell me. I want to know."
I gaze into patient gray eyes, trying to gauge his mood. Is this going to make him mad, or does he genuinely want to know? I don't want him sulking . . . he's impossible when he's sulking.
"You really want me to tell you?"
He nods slowly once, and his lips twitch with an amused, arrogant smile.
"I was briefly in Vegas with Mom and Husband Number Three. I was in tenth grade. His name was Bradley, and he was my lab partner in physics."
"How old were you?"
"Fifteen."
"And what's he doing now?"
"I don't know."
"What base did he get to?"
"Christian!" I scold—and suddenly he grabs my knees, then my ankles, and tips me up so I fall back on to the couch. He slides smoothly on top of me, trapping me beneath him, one leg between mine. It's so sudden that I cry out in surprise. He grabs my hands and raises them above my head.
"So, this Bradley—did he get to first base?" he murmurs, running his nose down the length of mine. He plants soft kisses at the corner of my mouth.
"Yes," I murmur against his lips. He releases one of his hands so that he can clasp my chin and hold me still while his tongue invades my mouth, and I surrender to his ardent kissing.
"Like this?" Christian breathes when he comes up for air.
"No . . . nothing like that," I manage as all the blood in my body heads south.
Releasing my chin, he runs his hand down over my body and back up to my breast.
"Did he do this? Touch you like this?" His thumb skims over my nipple, through my camisole, softly, repeatedly, and it hardens under his expert touch.
"No." I writhe beneath him.
"Did he get to second base?" he murmurs in my ear. His hand moves down across my ribs, past my waist to my hip. He takes my earlobe between his teeth and gently tugs.
"No," I breathe.
Mulder blurts from the television something about the FBI's most unwanted.
Christian pauses, leans up, and presses mute on the remote. He gazes down at me.
"What about Joe Schmo number two? Did he make it past second base?"
His eyes are smoldering hot . . . angry? Turned on? It's difficult to say which.
He shifts to my side and slides his hand beneath my sweatpants.
"No," I whisper, trapped in his carnal gaze. Christian smiles wickedly.
"Good." His hand cups my sex. "No underwear, Mrs. Grey. I approve." He kisses me again as his fingers weave more magic, his thumb skimming over my *oris, tantalizing me, as he pushes his index finger inside me with exquisite slowness.
"We're supposed to be making out." I groan.
Christian stills. "I thought we were?"
"No. No sex."
"What?"
"No sex . . ."
"No sex, huh?" He withdraws his hand from my sweatpants. "Here." He traces my lips with his index finger, and I taste my slick saltiness. He pushes his finger into my mouth, mirroring what he was doing a moment earlier. Then shifts so he's between my legs, and his erection pushes against me. He thrusts, once, twice, and again. I gasp as the material of my sweatpants rubs in just the right way. He pushes once more, grinding into me.
"This what you want?" he murmurs and moves his hips rhythmically, rocking against me.
"Yes." I moan.
His hand moves back to concentrate on my nipple once more and his teeth scrape along my jaw. "Do you know how hot you are, Ana?" His voice is hoarse as he rocks harder against me. I open my mouth to articulate a response and fail miserably, groaning loudly. He captures my mouth once more, tugging at my bottom lip with his teeth before plunging his tongue into my mouth again. He releases my other wrist and my hands travel greedily up his shoulders and into his hair as he kisses me. When I pull on his hair, he groans and raises his eyes to mine.
"Ah . . ."
"Do you like me touching you?" I whisper.
His brow furrows briefly as if he doesn't understand the question. He stops grinding against me. "Of course I do. I love you touching me, Ana. I'm like a starving man at a banquet when it comes to your touch." His voice hums with passionate sincerity.
Holy cow . . .
He kneels between my legs and drags me up to haul off my top. I'm naked beneath. Grabbing the hem of his shirt, he yanks it over his head and tosses it on the floor, then pulls me onto his kneeling lap, his arms clasped just above my behind.
"Touch me," he breathes.
Oh my . . . Tentatively I reach up and brush the tips of my fingers through the smattering of chest hair over his sternum, over his burn scars. He inhales sharply and his pupils dilate, but it's not with fear. It's a sensual response to my touch. He watches me intently as my fingers float delicately over his skin, first to one nipple and then the other. They pucker beneath my caress. Leaning forward, I plant soft kisses on his chest, and my hands move to his shoulders, feeling the hard, sculptured lines of sinew and muscle. Jeez . . . he's in good shape.
"I want you," he murmurs and it's a green light to my libido. My fingers move into his hair, pulling his head back so I can claim his mouth, fire licking hot and high in my belly. He groans and pushes me back onto the couch. He sits up and rips off my sweatpants, undoing his fly at the same time.
"Home run," he whispers, and swiftly he fills me.
"Ah . . ." I groan and he stills, grabbing my face between his hands.
"I love you, Mrs. Grey," he murmurs and very slowly, very gently, he makes love to me until I come apart at the seams, calling his name and wrapping myself around him, never wanting to let him go.
I lay sprawled on his chest. We're on the floor of the TV room.
"You know, we completely bypassed third base." My fingers trace the line of his pectoral muscles.
He laughs. "Next time, Mrs. Grey." He kisses the top of my head.
I look up to stare at the television screen where the end credits for The X-Files play. Christian reaches for the remote and switches the sound back on.
"You liked that show?" I ask.
"When I was a kid."
Oh . . . Christian as a kid . . . kickboxing and X Files and no touching.
"You?" he asks.
"Before my time."
"You're so young." Christian smiles fondly. "I like making out with you, Mrs. Grey."
"Likewise, Mr. Grey." I kiss his chest, and we lie silently watching as The X-Files finish and the commercials come on.
"It's been a heavenly three weeks. Car chases and fires and psycho ex-bosses notwithstanding. Like being in our own private bubble," I mutter dreamily.
"Hmm," Christian hums deep in his throat. "I'm not sure I'm ready to share you with the rest of the world yet."
"Back to reality tomorrow," I murmur, trying to keep the melancholy from my voice.
Christian sighs and runs his other hand through his hair. "Security will be tight—" I put my finger over his lips. I don't want to hear this lecture again.
"I know. I'll be good. I promise." Which reminds me . . . I shift, propping myself up on my elbows to see him better. "Why were you shouting at Sawyer?"
He stiffens immediately. Oh shit.
"Because we were followed."
"That wasn't Sawyer's fault."
He gazes at me levelly. "They should never have let you get so far in front.
They know that."
I blush guiltily and resume my position, resting on his chest. It was my fault.
I wanted to get away from them.
"That wasn't—"
"Enough!" Christian is suddenly curt. "This is not up for discussion, Anastasia. It's a fact, and they won't let it happen again."