Oh shit. I had no idea. How the hell does he know? I scowl at the screen and quickly check the e-mails we've sent, deleting them as I do.
Promptly at five thirty, Jack is at my desk. It is Dress-down Friday so he's wearing jeans and a black shirt. He looks very casual.
"Drink, Ana? We usually like to go for a quick one at the bar across the street."
"We?" I ask, hopeful.
"Yeah, most of us go... you coming?"
For some unknown reason, which I don't want to examine too closely, relief floods through me.
"I'd love to. What's the bar called?"
"50s."
"You're kidding."
He looks at me oddly. "No. Some significance for you?"
"No, sorry. I'll join you over there."
"What would you like to drink?"
"A beer please."
"Cool."
I make my way to the powder room and e-mail Christian from the Blackberry.
From: Anastasia Steele
Subject: You'll Fit Right In
Date: June 10, 2011 17:36
To: Christian Grey
We are going to a bar called Fifty's.
The rich seam of humor that I could mine from this is endless.
I look forward to seeing you there, Mr. Grey.
A x
From: Christian Grey
Subject: Hazards
Date: June 10, 2011 17:38
To: Anastasia Steele
Mining is a very, very dangerous occupation.
Christian Grey
CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.
From: Anastasia Steele
Subject: Hazards?
Date: June 10, 2011 17:40
To: Christian Grey
And your point is?
From: Christian Grey
Subject: Merely...
Date: June 10, 2011 17:42
To: Anastasia Steele
Making an observation, Miss Steele.
I'll see you shortly.
Sooners rather than laters, baby.
Christian Grey
CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.
I check myself in the mirror. What a difference a day can make. I have more color in my cheeks, and my eyes are shining. It's the Christian Grey effect. A little e-mail sparring with him will do that to a girl. I grin at the mirror and straighten my pale blue shirt - the one Taylor bought me. I am wearing my favorite jeans today, too. Most of the women in the office wear either jeans or floaty skirts. I will need to invest in a floaty skirt or two. Perhaps I'll do that this weekend and bank the check Christian gave me for Wanda, my Beetle.
As I head out of the building, I hear my name called.
"Miss Steele?"
I turn expectantly, and an ashen young woman approaches me cautiously. She looks like a ghost - so pale and strangely blank.
"Miss Anastasia Steele?" she repeats, and her features stay static even though she's speaking.
"Yes?"
She stops, staring at me from about three feet away on the sidewalk, and I stare back, immobilized. Who is she? What does she want?
"Can I help you?" I ask. How does she know my name?
"No... I just wanted to look at you." Her voice is eerily soft. Like me, she has dark hair that starkly contrasts with her fair skin. Her eyes are brown, like bourbon, but flat.
There's no life in them at all. Her beautiful face is pale, and etched with sorrow.
"Sorry - you have me at a disadvantage," I say politely, trying to ignore the warning tingle up my spine. On closer inspection, she looks odd, disheveled and uncared for. Her clothes are two sizes too big, including her designer trench coat.
She laughs, a strange, discordant sound that only feeds my anxiety.
"What do you have that I don't?" she asks sadly.
My anxiety turns to fear. "I'm sorry - who are you?"
"Me? I'm nobody." She lifts her arm to drag her hand through her shoulder length hair, and as she does, the sleeve of her trench coat rides up, revealing a soiled bandage around her wrist.
Holy f*ck.
"Good day, Miss Steele." Turning, she walks up the street as I stand rooted to the spot.
I watch as her slight frame disappears from view, lost amongst the workers pouring out of their various offices.
What was that about?
Confused, I cross the street to the bar, trying to assimilate what has just happened, while my subconscious rears her ugly head and hisses at me - She has something to do with Christian.
Fifty's is a cavernous, impersonal bar with baseball pennants and posters hanging on the wall. Jack is at the bar with Elizabeth, Courtney the other commissioning editor, two guys from finance, and Claire from reception. She is wearing her trademark silver hooped earrings.
"Hi, Ana!" Jack hands me a bottle of Bud.
"Cheers... thank you," I murmur, still shaken by my encounter with Ghost Girl.
"Cheers." We clink bottles, and he continues his conversation with Elizabeth. Claire smiles sweetly at me.
"So, how has your first week been?" she asks.
"Good, thank you. Everyone seems very friendly."
"You seem much happier today."
I flush. "It's Friday," I mutter quickly. "So - have you any plans this weekend?"
My patented distraction technique works and I'm saved. Claire turns out to be one of seven kids, and she's going to a big family get-together in Tacoma. She becomes quite animated, and I realize I haven't spoken to any women my own age since Kate left for Barbados.
Absently I wonder how Kate is... and Elliot. I must remember to ask Christian if he's heard from him. Oh, and Ethan her brother will be back next Tuesday, and he'll be staying in our apartment. I can't imagine Christian is going to be happy about that. My earlier encounter with strange Ghost Girl slips further from my mind.
During my conversation with Claire, Elizabeth hands me another beer.
"Thanks," I smile at her.
Claire is very easy to talk to - she likes to talk - and before I know it, I am on my third beer, courtesy of one of the guys from finance.
When Elizabeth and Courtney leave, Jack joins Claire and me. Where is Christian?
One of the finance guys engages Claire in conversation.
"Ana, think you made the right decision coming here?" Jack's voice is soft, and he's standing a bit too close. But I've noticed that he has a tendency to do this with everyone, even at the office. My subconscious narrows her eyes. You're reading too much into this, she admonishes me.
"I've enjoyed myself this week, thank you, Jack. Yes, I think I made the right decision."
"You're a very bright girl, Ana. You'll go far."
I blush. "Thank you," I mutter, because I don't know what else to say.
"Do you live far?"
"The Pike Market district."
"Not far from me." Smiling, he moves even closer and leans against the bar, effectively trapping me. "Do you have any plans this weekend?"
"Well... um - "
I feel him before I see him. It's as if my whole body is highly attuned to his presence.
It relaxes and ignites at the same time - a weird, internal duality - and I sense that strange pulsing electricity.
Christian drapes his arm around my shoulder in a seemingly casual display of affection - but I know differently. He is staking a claim, and on this occasion, it's very welcome.
Softly he kisses my hair.
"Hello, baby," he murmurs.
I can't help but feel relieved, safe, and excited with his arm around me. He draws me to his side, and I glance up at him while he stares at Jack, his expression impassive. Turning his attention to me, he gives me a brief crooked smile followed by a swift kiss. He's wearing his navy pinstriped jacket over jeans and an open white shirt. He looks edible.
Jack shuffles back uncomfortably.
"Jack, this is Christian," I mumble apologetically. Why am I apologizing? "Christian, Jack."
"I'm the boyfriend," Christian says with a small, cool smile that doesn't reach his eyes as he shakes Jack's hand. I glance up at Jack who is mentally assessing the fine specimen of manhood in front of him.
"I'm the boss," Jack replies arrogantly. "Ana did mention an ex-boyfriend."
Oh, shit. You don't want to play this game with Fifty.
"Well, no longer ex," Christian replies calmly. "Come on, baby, time to go."
"Please, stay and join us for a drink," Jack says smoothly.
I don't think that's a good idea. Why is this so uncomfortable? I glance at Claire, who is, of course staring, open-mouthed and with frankly carnal appreciation at Christian.
When will I stop caring about the effect he has on other women?
"We have plans," Christian replies with his enigmatic smile.
We do? And a frisson of anticipation runs through my body.
"Another time, perhaps," he adds. "Come," he says to me as he takes my hand.
"See you Monday." I smile at Jack, Claire, and the guys from finance, trying hard to ignore Jack's less-than-pleased expression, and follow Christian out of the door.
Taylor is at the wheel of the Audi waiting at the curb.
"Why did that feel like a pissing contest?" I ask Christian as he opens the car door for me. "Because it was," he murmurs and gives me his enigmatic smile then shuts my door.
"Hello, Taylor," I say and our eyes meet in the review mirror.
"Miss Steele," Taylor acknowledges with a genial smile.
Christian slides in beside me, clasps my hand, and gently kisses my knuckles. "Hi," he says softly.
My cheeks turn pink, knowing that Taylor can hear us, grateful that he can't see the scorching, panty-combusting look that Christian is giving me. It takes all my self-restraint not to leap on him right here, in the back seat of the car.
Oh, the back seat of the car... hmm. My inner goddess strokes her chin gently in quiet contemplation.
"Hi," I breathe, my mouth dry.
"What would you like to do this evening?"
"I thought you said we had plans."
"Oh, I know what I'd like to do, Anastasia. I'm asking you what you want to do."
I beam at him.
"I see," he says with a wickedly salacious grin. "So... begging it is, then. Do you want to beg at my place or yours?" He tilts his head to one side and smiles his oh-so-sexy smile at me.
"I think you're being very presumptuous, Mr. Grey. But by way of a change, we could go to my apartment." I bite my lip deliberately, and his expression darkens.
"Taylor, Miss Steele's, please."
"Sir," Taylor acknowledges and he heads off into the traffic.
"So how has your day been?" he asks.
"Good. Yours?"
"Good, thank you."
His ridiculously broad grin reflects mine, and he kisses my hand again.
"You look lovely," he says.
"As do you."
"Your boss, Jack Hyde, is he good at his job?"
Whoa! That's a sudden change in direction? I frown. "Why? This isn't about your pissing contest?"
Christian smirks. "That man wants into your panties, Anastasia," he says dryly.
I go crimson as my mouth drops open, and I glance nervously at Taylor. My subconscious inhales sharply, shocked.
"Well, he can want all he likes... why are we even having this conversation? You know I have no interest in him whatsoever. He's just my boss."
"That's the point. He wants what's mine. I need to know if he's good at his job."
I shrug. "I think so." Where is he going with this?
"Well, he'd better leave you alone, or he'll find himself on his ass on the sidewalk."
"Oh, Christian, what are you talking about? He hasn't done anything wrong."... Yet.
He just stands too close.
"He makes one move, you tell me. It's called gross moral turpitude - or sexual harass-ment."
"It was just a drink after work."
"I mean it. One move and he's out."
"You don't have that kind of power." Honestly! And before I roll my eyes at him, the realization hits me with the force of a speeding freight truck. "Do you, Christian?"
Christian gives me his enigmatic smile.
"You're buying the company," I whisper in horror.
His smile slips in response to the panic in my voice. "Not exactly," he says.
"You've bought it. SIP. Already."
He blinks at me, warily. "Possibly."
"You have or you haven't?"
"Have."
What the hell? "Why?" I gasp, appalled. Oh, this just is too much.
"Because I can, Anastasia. I need you safe."
"But you said you wouldn't interfere in my career!"
"And I won't."
I snatch my hand out of his. "Christian..." Words fail me.
"Are you mad at me?"
"Yes. Of course I'm mad at you." I seethe. "I mean, what kind of responsible business executive makes decisions based on who they are currently f*cking?" I blanch and glance nervously once more at Taylor who is stoically ignoring us.
Shit. What a time to have a brain-to-mouth filter malfunction. Anastasia! My subconscious glares at me.
Christian opens his mouth then closes it again and scowls at me. I glare at him. The atmosphere in the car plunges from warm with sweet reunion to frigid with unspoken words and potential recriminations as we glower at each other.
Fortunately, our uncomfortable car journey doesn't last long, and Taylor pulls up outside my apartment.
I scramble out of the car quickly, not waiting for anyone to open the door.
I hear Christian mutter to Taylor, "I think you'd better wait here."
I sense him standing close behind me as I struggle to find the front door keys in my purse.
"Anastasia," he says calmly as if I'm some cornered wild animal.
I sigh and turn to face him. I am so mad at him, my anger is palpable - a dark entity threatening to choke me.
"First, I haven't f*cked you for a while - a long while, it feels - and second, I wanted to get into publishing. Of the four companies in Seattle, SIP is the most profitable, but it's on the cusp and it's going to stagnate - it needs to branch out."
I stare frigidly at him. His eyes are so intense, threatening even, but sexy as hell. I could get lost in their steely depths.
"So you're my boss now," I snap.
"Technically, I'm your boss's boss's boss."
"And, technically, it's gross moral turpitude - the fact that I am f*cking my boss's boss's boss."
"At the moment, you're arguing with him." Christian scowls.
"That's because he's such an arse," I hiss.
Christian steps back in stunned surprise. Oh shit. Have I gone too far?
"An arse?" he murmurs as his expression changes to one of amusement.
Goddamn it! I am mad at you, do not make me laugh!
"Yes." I struggle to maintain my look of moral outrage.
"An arse?" Christian says again. This time his lips twitch with a repressed smile.
"Don't make me laugh when I am mad at you!" I shout.
And he smiles, a dazzling, full-toothed, all-American-boy smile, and I can't help it. I am grinning and laughing, too. How could I not be affected by the joy I see in his smile?
"Just because I have a stupid damn grin on my face doesn't mean I'm not mad as hell at you," I mutter breathlessly, trying to suppress my high-school-cheerleader giggling.
Though I was never cheerleader - the bitter thought crosses my mind.
He leans in, and I think he's going to kiss me but he doesn't. He nuzzles my hair and inhales deeply.
"As ever, Miss Steele, you are unexpected." He leans back and gazes at me, his eyes dancing with humor. "So are you going to invite me in, or am I to be sent packing for exercising my democratic right as an American citizen, entrepreneur, and consumer to purchase whatever I damn well please?"
"Have you spoken to Dr. Flynn about this?"
He laughs. "Are you going to let me in or not, Anastasia?"
I try for a grudging look - biting my lip helps - but I'm smiling as I open the door.
Christian turns and waves to Taylor, and the Audi pulls away.
It's odd having Christian Grey in the apartment. The place feels too small for him.
I am still mad at him - his stalking knows no bounds, and it dawns on me that this is how he knew about the e-mail being monitored at SIP. He probably knows more about SIP
than I do. The thought is unsavory.
What can I do? Why does he have this need to keep me safe? I am a grown-up - sort of - for heaven's sake. What can I do to reassure him?
I gaze at his beautiful face as he paces the room like a caged predator, and my anger subsides. Seeing him here in my space when I thought we were over is heartwarming.
More than heartwarming, I love him, and my heart swells with a nervous, heady elation.
He glances around, assessing his surroundings.
"Nice place," he says.
"Kate's parents bought it for her."
He nods distractedly, and his bold gray eyes come to rest on mine, staring at me.
"Er... would you like a drink?" I mutter, flushing with nerves.
"No, thank you, Anastasia." His eyes darken.
Oh crap. Why am I so nervous?
"What would you like to do, Anastasia?" he asks softly as he walks toward me, all feral and hot. "I know what I want to do," he adds in a low voice.
I back up until I bump against the concrete kitchen island.
"I'm still mad at you."
"I know." He smiles a lopsided apologetic smile and I melt... Well, maybe not so mad.
"Would you like something to eat?" I ask.
He nods slowly. "Yes. You," he murmurs. Everything south of my waistline clenches.
I'm seduced by his voice alone, but that look, that hungry I-want-you-now look - oh my.
He's standing in front of me, not quite touching, staring down into my eyes and bathing me in the heat that's radiating off his body. I'm stiflingly hot, flustered, and my legs are like jelly as dark desire courses through me. I want him.
"Have you eaten today?" he murmurs.
"I had a sandwich at lunch," I whisper. I don't want to talk food.
He narrows his eyes. "You need to eat."
"I'm really not hungry right now... for food."
"What are you hungry for, Miss Steele?"
"I think you know, Mr. Grey."
He leans down, and again I think he's going to kiss me, but he doesn't.
"Do you want me to kiss you, Anastasia?" he whispers softly in my ear.
"Yes," I breathe.
"Where?"
"Everywhere."
"You're going to have to be a bit more specific than that. I told you I am not going to touch you until you beg me and tell me what to do."
My inner goddess is writhing on her chaise longue. I am lost; he's not playing fair.
"Please," I whisper.
"Please what?"
"Touch me."
"Where, baby?"
He is so tantalizingly close, his scent intoxicating. I reach up, and immediately he steps back."No, no," he chides, his eyes suddenly wide and alarmed.
"What?" No... come back.
"No." He shakes his head.
"Not at all?" I can't keep the longing out of my voice.
He looks at me uncertainly, and I'm emboldened by his hesitation. I step toward him, and he steps back, holding up his hands in defense, but smiling.
"Look, Ana." It's a warning, and he runs his hand through his hair, exasperated.
"Sometimes you don't mind," I observe plaintively. "Perhaps I should find a marker pen, and we could map out the no-go areas."
He raises an eyebrow. "That's not a bad idea. Where's your bedroom?"
I nod in the direction. Is he deliberately changing the subject?
"Have you been taking your pill?"
Oh shit. My pill.
His face falls at my expression.
"No," I squeak.
"I see," he says, and his lips press into a thin line. "Come, let's have something to eat."
Oh no!
"I thought we were going to bed! I want to go to bed with you."
"I know, baby." He smiles, and suddenly darting toward me, he grabs my wrists and pulls me into his arms so that his body is pressed against mine.
"You need to eat and so do I," he murmurs, burning gray eyes gazing down at me.
"Besides... anticipation is the key to seduction, and right now, I'm really into delayed gratification."
Huh, since when?
"I'm seduced and I want my gratification now. I'll beg, please." I sound whiney. My inner goddess is beside herself.
He smiles at me tenderly. "Eat. You're too slender." He kisses my forehead and releases me.
This is a game, part of some evil plan. I scowl at him.
"I'm still mad that you bought SIP, and now I am mad at you because you're making me wait." I pout.
"You are one angry little madam, aren't you? You'll feel better after a good meal."
"I know what I'll feel better after."
"Anastasia Steele, I'm shocked." His tone is gently mocking.
"Stop teasing me. You don't fight fair."
He stifles his grin by biting his lower lip. He looks simply adorable... playful Christian toying with my libido. If only my seduction skills were better, I'd know what to do, but not being able to touch him does hamper me.
My inner goddess narrows her eyes and looks thoughtful. We need to work on this.
As Christian and I gaze at each other - me hot, bothered and yearning and him, relaxed and amused at my expense - I realize I have no food in the apartment.
"I could cook something - except we'll have to go shopping."
"Shopping?"