Shit.
“What is that effing monstrosity?” I ask, pointing at the blue and white thing dangling from the hook. “I'm not wearing that.”
“Oh my God, Allison, give me a break. When's the last time you wore a dress?”
“Three years ago when Aunt Margaret passed away; Mom made me.”
“You're eighteen years old for crap's sake. Just try it on. If you hate it, I won't make you wear it.”
“I hate it now. How will putting it on change that?”
Lorna stares me down and then glances over at the mirror, adjusting the daisy chain so that it sits even prettier atop her perfect white-blonde hair. I have the same hair, but I always put a few colored steaks on the side. Today, I've got a miniature rainbow woven in.
“I bought this with my own, hard-earned money and …”
“Fine.”
I reach over and snatch the dress from the hook, giving it another once-over. To say it's not my style would be an understatement. The skirt is too short and the color …
“I hate blue,” I groan as I take my top off and drop the dress over my head. It slides into place like it was made for me. Crap.
“Turn around,” Lorna tells me, making me spin so she can zip it up and tie the white bow in the back. As soon as she knots it, I get this awful feeling in the pit of my stomach.
“I'm wearing this, aren't I?” I ask miserably, staring at the brightly colored fish on the shower curtain. I can feel my sister grinning maniacally behind me though.
“Oh, yes,” she tells me, purring in my ear as I swat her away, “yes, you are. Don't you want to get laid sometime, Sonny?” I wrinkle my nose because I hate the nickname Sonny, but Lorna knows it and if I reveal my cards … it'll only make her say it more.
“I have been laid—several times actually,” I tell her as I turn around and try not to sigh.
The dress, it actually looks really good on me.
By the end of the night, I'd get to see how good it looked covered in blood.
To be fair, it looked pretty good like that, too.
The party is this overblown nightmare affair at the house of a student I don't even know.
“This is so fucking great,” Lorna gushes excitedly, yanking me out of the car and slapping my hands away from the dress. I keep trying to smooth the skirt down, but it flounces right back up. I paired it with a red waist cincher, black and white harlequin patterned tights, and some buckled boots, but still … it's ridiculously uncomfortable.
“Please don't get puking drunk,” I warn as she bounces into the kitchen and immediately starts filling a plastic cup with vodka. “If you do, I'm not covering for you this time.”
I watch my sixteen year old sister splash pink lemonade into her drink and then chug it.
“Whatever,” I mutter, shaking my head and adjusting the big black headband pinned to my hair. It has a small top hat lilting to the side, black silk roses clustered around the base. I can't decide if I look … okay … or ridiculous.
Weaving through the crowd, I keep an eye out for Brandon, a fellow senior in my class and the only guy at my school who's not a fucking asshole. I'm tired of dating immature, spoiled little boys. I can't wait to graduate and head off to college. But at the same time, there's no way I'm spending my senior year alone.
Once I find the backyard—this hormonal mess of groping teens and flickering torches to keep the mosquitos away—I spot Brandon. He's sitting on the edge of the pool with his jeans pushed up and his feet dangling over the edge.
If I'd known then that I'd later see him with a bullet in his head, I'd have run away screaming.
“Hey,” I say softly, sitting down next to him and crossing my legs. I shove the skirt down between my thighs and it fluffs right back up. I hate you, Lorna, I think as I watch Brandon swirling his feet in the heated waters of the pool.
“Hey,” he replies, just as softly, pushing his glasses up his nose and smiling over at me. “I don't usually see you at these things.”
I shrug my shoulders loosely and pick at the edges of the blue and white dress.
“I don't usually come,” I tell him with a smile that says he is the reason I'm here. Either it doesn't come across or else Brandon's too naive to notice that I'm flirting with him. “So … what are you doing here? This doesn't really seem like your scene either.”
Brandon sits up and tosses a shy smile my way.
“My brother dragged me here.”
I grin at him.
“Sister,” I say, pointing at myself and we both chuckle. I've got him, I think as I scoot a little closer and keep smiling.
The pool is lit up with small round lights in the bottom and sides, turning the water a brilliant turquoise that casts strange shadows on Brandon's face. He stares into it like there's something there that he wants—and that he wants a hell of a lot more than me.
I guess even chess geeks can be assholes.
“Do you like to read?” I ask him, lifting up the book clutched at my side and trying to pass it over. Brandon glances casually my way, fixes his glasses yet again, and smiles.
“I don't have a lot of time to read,” he tells me, and although that's a common enough thing to say, there's an edge to it. His hand tightens around his knee, knuckles going white as he squeezes it. Fuck, what the hell is this guy's problem?
Now I'm already trying to figure out how to get away from Brandon, so I can read. Why are guys in books so much less dickish than ones in real life? Cuter, too. Oh, and they never have pimples. Brandon has one on his chin which is fucking fine, or would be if he wasn't being an apathetic dick.
“Okay,” I whisper under my breath, noticing that his eyes have glazed over and he really isn't paying attention to me anymore.
I stand up, feeling flustered, and start off toward the trees near the back of the property. Whoever's house this is, their parents are loaded and there are all these beautiful white lights strung up across the yard. I make a beeline toward a bench beneath the voluminous folds of an oak and take a seat, lying on my back and wishing I hadn't let Lorna put any makeup on my face.
“What a waste,” I murmur as I crack the book and try to find my place.
“I love you, baby,” he says, cupping the back of my neck and pulling me close. Our foreheads touch and my breath falls out in a rush. His fingertips burn; his mouth is hot. I've never wanted anything as much as I want him.
“Lucky bitch,” I mutter as I flip to the next page.
I'm so into my book that I don't notice Brandon making his way across the sweeping lawns toward me, his dark hair shimmering under the strands of Edison bulbs strung from the trees. The only reason I look up at all is because I hear the distinctive clicking sound of a hammer being pulled back.
“Oh, for Christ's sake, I'm late,” a voice snaps, and my head whips up, goose bumps taking over my arms, crawling down my back.