"Seriously, what are you doing?" she asks. "You're covering up the goods."
"I have no goods, Sable," I say, slamming the drawer shut. "These are the boobs of a girl who wears sweatpants and eats Chinese food while she binge-watches reality TV. These are not the boobs of a girl who proudly displays them to football players."
She purses her lips as she eyes me. "Fine. But you're never going to lose your virginity with that attitude."
I pull open the door, turning to hiss at her before I leave. "I'm not going to show some dumb jock my tits or lose my virginity to him."
I pull the door shut and turn – right into that dumb jock.
Ooph.
"How much of that did you hear exactly?" I ask, hoping with every ounce of hope I have inside me that he'll say he's actually hard of hearing. I issue a silent prayer heavenward.
Please say he didn't hear me say I was a virgin. Or call him a dumb jock.
"All of it," he says.
"Well." I move around him and walk down the hallway. I hear his footsteps close behind, and when I reach the living room, I gesture toward the door. "So. I guess you should be leaving now."
After I pass out and die of embarrassment right here in my apartment.
"I wasn't eavesdropping," he says, holding up his phone, a sheepish look on his face. "I just got a text from a friend, and I had to go, and you were taking a while, so that's why I was in the hallway and … yeah, I came by to ask if you would reconsider tutoring me."
"I see." Those are the only words I can get out. I think my heart stopped beating when I ran into him in the hallway — right after I called him a dumb jock and said I was a virgin.
"I wasn't trying to take your virginity," he says.
Oh, dear God. Did he just say that?
Is it possible to die of mortification? Because I think I might actually be dying. My face is probably the deepest shade of burgundy on earth.
I try to speak, but no words come out, so now I just look like a fish sucking air. A burgundy-faced virgin fish.
"It's okay," he says. "I wrote down my number on the card with the flowers. If you still want to tutor a dumb jock, just let me know."
Colton is near the door when I finally get my voice back. "Colton?"
"Yep."
I exhale heavily. I feel awful that he heard me call him a dumb jock. Heaven help me, I can't believe I'm about to say this. "Fine. Can you start this week?"
6
Colton
It's early evening but it's still hot as fuck. The summer air here, even at night, is thick with humidity, and I'm drenched with sweat. We're running seven-on-seven drills, and I couldn't be less focused on what's happening right now if I tried. I've dropped the ball six times, run two routes backwards, and collided mid-field with one of the receivers.
I'm jacked up nervous. I'm supposed to meet Cassandra for tutoring tomorrow.
Cassandra.
Coach Walker told me her name. Maybe she goes by Cassie. I like the name Cassie better. It sounds kind of country, like she belongs in a field picking flowers or something.
The mental image of her in a yellow sundress picking flowers in a field flashes in my head. Yeah, right. That girl is way too uptight for that.
I replace that image with one of Cassandra behind a desk in the library, those glasses perched on the tip of her nose, scowling from behind a pile of books. Except she'd be wearing a white button-down shirt with nothing underneath.
The way she was bare under that tank top in her apartment.
My cock jumps at that image.
Focus, Colton. Get your mind off the librarian.
The virgin librarian.
Your virgin tutor.
The one with the full tits, perky underneath the thin cotton top, her hair stuck up in a ponytail on the top of her head, jutting out in every direction like she just stuck her finger in a light socket.
Shit. That's not helping either.
It also doesn't help matters that when I walk into the room at the student center where I'm supposed to meet her the next day, she's wearing a white button-down shirt and a skirt, like she just stepped right out of my daydream. When she stands up on the other side of the table, I can see the way the fabric of the skirt skims the curves of her hips, accentuating her body so much that I have a hard time looking anywhere else.
This time, her hair is pulled up, but neatly. I think I preferred it when it was a mess. I have to resist the urge to reach up there and undo it.
"Colton," she says, and I blink.
"What's up?"
"You're just staring at me."
Shit. "Oh, yeah."
There's a table and two chairs facing each other. She's standing on the other side of the table, which means I’m supposed to sit here across from her. And I’m supposed to focus on school bullshit when she sits across from me looking like that.
"I realized you don't even know my name," she says. "Or you do, because you found my address, so you probably have my name too, I guess."
"Cassandra," I say, flopping into the seat facing her. "Coach gave me your name."
Her cheeks turn pink again. God, she blushes easily.