“That’s because I haven’t told them anything. What do you want?”
Jesse was dressed entirely in black. His hair was black, with random flecks of gray. He’d let his beard grow. He was in his early forties and looked wild, as if he’d just come out of the mountains or off a pirate ship.
But his eyes, Harris noted, were virtually colorless, utterly soulless.
Jesse held a knife in one hand. Casually, as if it should cause no concern.
Harris was no expert on weapons, but he knew it wasn’t a kitchen knife. One side of the blade was serrated, the other side smooth. Both would cut. An assault knife of some kind, he thought.
“You don’t need that,” he said.
“I’m afraid I do.” Jesse ran a thumb along the smooth edge of the blade, as if he wanted to test its sharpness, see his own blood. “A knife is fast, quiet. In many situations, it’s more useful than a gun. You agree, don’t you, Harris?”
Harris tried to ignore the thudding of his heart, and summoned the last shreds of his dignity, his honor. He’d let himself be lured and manipulated by this man and by Cal Benton, by his own greed and compulsions, his own need for drama.
Stonily, he said, “It’s Judge Mayer.”
Jesse laughed, a hollow sound that conveyed neither pleasure nor fellow-feeling. “I like that. You’d go to the gallows with a stiff upper lip, wouldn’t you?”
“I would hope not to go to the gallows at all.”
“A little late, Judge Mayer.”
“I suppose so,” he said without flinching. “I made my deal with the devil.”
“Oh, yes.” The colorless, soulless eyes flashed, and the light seemed to dance on the knife blade. Jesse lowered his voice. “So you did.”
In the cheap entry mirror, Mayer recognized his own stark look of fear.
No, he thought. Not fear.
Dread.
He took in a shallow breath. “I don’t have your money, Jesse. I don’t know where it is. That’s the truth. Double-crossing you wasn’t my idea.”
Outside, car tires screeched, but it was silent in the small, rented room. Harris had stayed here before. It was his refuge – his hiding place. He’d been so sure no one would think to look for him here.
“How did you find me?” he asked.
“You’re a creature of habits.”
“The bar…you followed me. Did you see me having coffee with Cal? Why didn’t you follow him?”
“He’s not the one who went to the FBI. Don’t try to pretend you’re the innocent here. Cal couldn’t have betrayed me without your help.”
Harris thought of his foyer at home, with its antique mirror and half-moon table. Once it had been filled with the sounds of running children and his wife’s welcome when he came home. He’d lost them all.
One beat, two beats passed. Harris absorbed the reality of just how much trouble he was in.
Finally, Jesse went on. “How much do you and Cal know about me?”
Harris didn’t hesitate. “Everything.”
He should have laid it all out for the FBI from the start and let the chips fall where they may. Instead, he had tried to play Andrew Rook the same way he’d played everyone else in his life who’d wanted to help him, to trust and believe in him. Subterfuge and betrayal were his art. His entertainment. He’d thought, why not practice what he was good at on the FBI? Rook was investigating, but he had little to go on. Harris had seen to that. He’d kept his revelations vague, promising specifics in future visits – keeping Rook’s interest without giving him anything concrete. Rook was in fish-or-cut-bait mode now. At their next meeting, he’d want details.
But Cal was right, Harris thought. He didn’t care about helping the FBI. He cared about saving his own skin.
The devil had come for his due, indeed.
“If you knew everything about me, Harris, you and Cal wouldn’t dare try to double-cross me.”
As if to further drive home his point, Jesse pressed his thumb onto the tip of his knife, drawing a pearl of his own blood.
“You’re a violent man, Jesse.” Harris felt some of his former presence on the bench come back to him. He’d never flinched in the face of what he had to hear and see in the courtroom. “You don’t use violence as a tool to get what you want. Violence is what you want.”
“That’s my secret, is it?”
“It’s your secret and it’s your weakness. Your obsession.”
Jesse smirked as he licked the pea of blood off his thumb. “You Princeton types. You’ve read too many Greek tragedies. I want my money. I want everything you and Cal have on me. I want to know what you know.”
“I’d never use what I know against you, and Cal won’t, either. It’s his insurance policy – to keep you out of his life. Jesse…” Harris gulped in air. Did he dare hope he could negotiate a deal with this man? “Jesse, you can trust me not to talk.”
“Seeing how you’ve been meeting with an FBI agent, no, you lying son of a bitch, I can’t trust you not to talk.” Jesse sprang forward and placed the knife blade at the side of Mayer’s throat. “I want my money.”